i think one of the more stressful things to me about doing cosplay modeling is although i can be decently photogenic at times, unless i can see myself or am given direction, i look so so so so *so* wickedly bad on camera.

its to the point where honestly part of the reason why i favor home shoots is bc i can see myself and self correct, ive had one too many shoots where i look at the proofs and just feel awful...i can look like a totally different person and not in a good way.

to be honest ive lost the thread on if i actually look good or bad. i have some really nice pictures and some absolutely horrendous ones. i know and more or less like how i look in the mirror, but lord "natural modeling" or photogenicness are not skills i possess