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#PisayGiveUsABreak: a thread
constantly since august i have been comparing myself to other students — namely, the good ones who used to submit on time, make color coded notes, actually study, and the like — and wonder how they do it. how do they manage to stay happy and well? +
constantly since august i have been comparing myself to other students — namely, the good ones who used to submit on time, make color coded notes, actually study, and the like — and wonder how they do it. how do they manage to stay happy and well? +
an syp student told me it& #39;s just abt time management again. it isn& #39;t, i set alarms for when i have to do reqs. and then, overlap, and then another alarm, etc, etc. some reqs are so easily forgettable that i need reminders. +
my stats started dropping. i would get just below passing, and think, "wow, if only i didn& #39;t play this game, read this book, etc, etc." this weekend flew by so fast. if i had been slaving over paper and pen maybe it would& #39;ve been different. +
not to mention the additional stress from other things such as parents, mental health, friends, etc. it& #39;s buildup and it& #39;s a train wreck waiting to happen. +
i didn& #39;t want to be in pisay, when i was about seven. it was all planned out for me that i would leave my old school at 7th grade to enroll in pshs. why did i not want to go? +
i was afraid. i was considered smart and i was afraid that i wouldn& #39;t be on that label anymore. in fact i was afraid to fall behind, to be in a new, faster paced environment.
i don& #39;t regret experiencing my first year, though. it could& #39;ve changed my opinion. +
i don& #39;t regret experiencing my first year, though. it could& #39;ve changed my opinion. +
but this situation is just putting us back to square one.
back to present - i began putting half the effort i usually would in reqs. at night i would look back on what i& #39;d done for the day, and scold myself, because i did nothing. +
back to present - i began putting half the effort i usually would in reqs. at night i would look back on what i& #39;d done for the day, and scold myself, because i did nothing. +
i had so much internal conflict about posting this, because i thought, maybe, that i would be a poster child, sample, to show to the parents in viber group chats, that i would be asked constantly about questions i didn& #39;t want to answer. +
i tried talking to my parents about mental health and the burden i& #39;ve been carrying for over three months. nothing got solved. i simply packed myself in a tighter box, thoughts with no outlet. +
can we take a break? refresh, restart, replay? a friday off means nothing - it& #39;s just a no-schedule work day. we& #39;re all so, so tired. sometimes i blank out during calls with my friends and time flies so fast i don& #39;t know what day it is. please give us a break.
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this thread was kind of personal, more of a vent than a message, and it took me a while to think about it, and then another long while to gather up the courage for it. sorry pls move along
