I& #39;ve had 3mg of Xanax and an entire bottle of wine (not in one go but over the course of several hours), and it& #39;s only barely calmed me down. I wanted to pass out peacefully, but I& #39;m not even close to wasted. I& #39;m still wired up. I hate my body.

Ok if this last Xanax I just took doesn& #39;t gently black me out, I don& #39;t know what I& #39;m going to do other than being really upset about wasting so much drugs and alcohol

Holy fuck guys it& #39;s been an hour and I& #39;m far from sober but that combination of drugs should have me drooling in a coma for several days. Why can& #39;t I turn my brain off? Why don& #39;t drugs work on my body chemistry? I just need a fucking release fuck.

All right. I don& #39;t want to use up my other bottle of wine yet. And I fear that another Xanax might actually have me in the danger zone. I found something else that might push me over the edge but probably not. But I& #39;m pretty sure I could still pass a fucking field sobriety test

Feel I should reassure the zero people reading this thread that I do not in fact regularly load myself with toxic amounts of multiple drugs. But I& #39;m about to do the most guilt-inducing thing I& #39;ve ever done in my life and I require chemical assistance.