"oh no," hongjxxng chokes out, squirming. "oh hyung, oh please, i–"

the threat of coming before he's allowed is so close, and hongjxxng wants to give in, wants to come so bad, but he also wants to be /good/. he wants to be good for seonghwx, wants to be praised by him.

"hyung, please–" he tries again, still squirming, trying to get away from the touch of seonghwx's hand on his cock, and only making things worse for himself. that little bit of friction is so good, and his whole body tenses as he does everything he can to hold back.

he barely makes it. seonghwx stills his hand, and hongjxxng gasps in a lungful of air, nearly hyperventilating, head falling back to rest on seonghwx's shoulder. he doesn't get much of a break.

seonghwx trails the pads of his fingers along the underside of hongjxxng's cock and hongjxxng sobs pathetically, so close to coming undone.

"i–" he chokes out, shaking his head. "i– hyung, i'm so– oh please, i'm so close, i'm so /close/, hyung."

he /aches/ for seonghwx to praise him, console him, tell him how good he is. and hongjxxng wants to be good for seonghwx, so badly he feels like he might die if he fails.

but seonghwx only hums, wrapping his hand around hongjxxng's cock completely again.

"you're close? baby's gonna come for me?"

hongjxxng lets out a high pitched whine that turns into a sob, twitching and shaking in seonghwx's grasp.

"hyung, hyungie, can i please? can i please, i'll be s-so good, i promise, i–" he breaks off again to choke out another sob.

"you will?" seonghwx asks. "you're gonna be good? how can you promise when you keep breaking the same rule?"

hongjxxng hiccups, and a tear slips down his face, followed by several more.

"hyung, i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, didn't mean to," he cries, sniffling.

"i promise i'll be good, i-i'll come home on time, i promise, /please/, i'm sorry, /hyung/."

he knows he'll forget again, knows he'll keep breaking the same rule over and over, but in the heat of the moment he's convinced he can do it.

and he is sorry, for making seonghwx miss him, for making the members miss him, and for worrying them, too. seonghwx knows this. he knows and he still punishes hongjxxng because hongjxxng has asked.

because hongjxxng feels guilty for all of it. and after they talk about it and he breaks down and cries, he always asks seonghwx for the same thing.

seonghwx lets the lie go. he hums and kisses the top of hongjxxng's head, and then takes his free hand up from beside him.

in an instant, hongjxxng is writhing, choking out desperate noises as seonghwx rubs mercilessly at the head of his cock with the palm of his hand. it feels so good it almost /hurts/, the pleasure overwhelming hongjxxng, and he comes before he even realizes it.

he sobs his way through it and cries harder after, knowing that he hasn't been good like he'd wanted to. seonghwx tuts at him and hongjxxng trembles against him, shaking with more sobs.

"hyung," he cries. "i'm sorry, i'm sorry."

seonghwx hums a little "mhm", and surprises hongjxxng by continuing to work at his cock, still rubbing at the head like before. hongjxxng jerks and twitches, sensitivity overwhelming him, and he cries out pathetically.

"that isn't all you have, is it? we're gonna get all of it out of you, okay, baby? gonna milk you until you're all empty. hyung knows you can do it." seonghwx murmurs, changing tactics and stroking hongjxxng tightly at a fast pace.

hongjxxng sobs, but nods his head, desperate to please, and /aching/ to feel the fuzziness this will bring him when they're done. he's been so stressed lately, unable to get out of his head, and he knows that seonghwx is doing exactly what he needs to do so.

"mmm, how much do you think you have left, baby? you're gonna be a good boy and let it all out for hyung, aren't you?"

hongjxxng hiccups and sniffles, writhing under seonghwx's touch, before answering.

"please– i'll be good, i'll be good–" he breaks off into a wretched sob.

"nnn, please m-milk me hyung, i need it s-so bad."

seonghwx coos and massages the slit of hongjxxng's cock with the tip of his thumb, drinking in the wail that he lets out.

"alright, baby, hyung's got you. hyung will get it all out of you, sweetheart."

hongjxxng's hips beging kicking up into seonghwx's touch, and he's sniffling and crying because it hurts, but the pain feels so /good/.

"nnhn, nnhn," he gets out, head falling back onto seonghwx's shoulder again. then he sobs, pathetically. "hyung, 'm so close. 'm close again."

"you wanna come?" seonghwx asks, sounding almost amused. hongjxxng sobs again.

"yuh-yes," he cries. "y-/yes/, hyung, i want to, want to soso bad. i wanna come for hyung."

"good boy," seonghwx says, and he isn't finished, but hongjxxng comes again anyway.

it's without permission /again/. he starts sobbing desperately, shaking his head through it and even after, turning his face so that he can nuzzle into the skin of seonghwx's neck as much as possible. seonghwx tsks at him, pace slowing down, but still going.

"i– i'm /sorry/, hyung." hongjxxng cries, squirming.

"you'd think you'd have learned by now, hm?" seonghwx asks, and hongjxxng shakes with another sob. "you seem to be having trouble with our rules lately."

hongjxxng trembles and shakes and cries.

"i'm s-sorry," he hiccups. "i-i'm sorry h-hyung, i wanna be good. i do, i promise, i wanna be good for you, i'm /sorry/."

seonghwx hums and twists his wrist around hongjxxng's cock, which is shiny and wet with two orgasms worth of come. hongjxxng lets out a choked cry.

"hyung knows, baby." seonghwx murmurs, and his free hand strokes gentle lines up and down hongjxxng's sides. "you try so hard, don't you? is it too hard, baby?"

"i–" hongjxxng stammers, squirming. "i– i don't know, hyung, d-don't know what's wrong with m-me, i'm trying."

"i'm trying s-so /hard/, hyung," a little sob leaves his lips. "i wanna be good so bad."

"i know, sweetheart." seonghwx says softly. "there's nothing wrong. you're just tired, huh? you work so hard for all of us, baby."

hongjxxng nods, lips trembling, and more tears spill over.

"it's alright, jxxngie," seonghwx murmurs, working his hand faster, flicking his wrist on every upstroke. "you're always so good, it's okay to slip up sometimes."

hongjxxng sobs in relief.

he's so close /again/, and he can feel it building faster then before.

"hyung," he chokes out, hurriedly. "i wanna come, i'm close, i'm so close."

"good boy," seonghwx says, smiling. "come for me."

and hongjxxng /does/, barely anything leaving his cock.

a long moan leaves his lips, and he shakes through it. seonghwx slows his hand until he's done, cooing at him, telling hongjxxng how good he's been, how well he's done.

"i'm gonna clean you up, okay baby? feel free to fall asleep, i know you're tired."

hongjxxng nods sleepily, and feels himself drift off against the sheets to seonghwx's soft touches.