Woah..that was freaky but familiar. Was lying down & decided to get up to take pain meds for #endometriosis and #fibroids and it felt as painful to get up as the day after surgery. In kitchen, sweating, lightheaded. Quickly squatted to avoid passing out holding onto fridge door
..which swung open..but I did not fall. Then once head feeling better, stood up long enough to take meds...then walked, wobbly and lightheaded to chair. I can't quite feel my palms but that will come back. This probably gets to be called 10/10 pain..but maybe really an 8/10
Great..and a migraine too..scotoma.. taking a migraine med and lying down. Man, when it rains it pours.
Mother Nature is such a misogynist.
SO glad I did not decide to rent a car and try to go Finger Lakes this weekend to see peak foliage.
Mother Nature is such a misogynist.
SO glad I did not decide to rent a car and try to go Finger Lakes this weekend to see peak foliage.
Wow...I've got some great friends. I'll be ok. I know the drill. This happens sometimes. I always have my meds. Drank water. had a few bites to eat. Drank more water. I'm in a doorman building so if anything worsens I'll call down. My phone is more than half charged and charging.
One of my best friends has what should be debilitating illness. She combines self care with powering thru certain times. The key is she runs her own business and controls her own deliverables, delegates what she needs to. I've learned a lot from her on self care + accomplishing
This is
% true
The antifragile & resilient mindsets/skills developed when cannot rely on own body
=assets
Prepared for anything
not fazed by sudden crisis
âDealing with health concerns can prepare you for the ups and downs of business ownershipâ https://www.business.com/articles/managing-business-with-chronic-illness/

The antifragile & resilient mindsets/skills developed when cannot rely on own body
=assets
Prepared for anything
not fazed by sudden crisis
âDealing with health concerns can prepare you for the ups and downs of business ownershipâ https://www.business.com/articles/managing-business-with-chronic-illness/
Medications are such wonderful things.
The pain is much more tolerable.
Actually got some sleep.
Am hoping to go back to sleep. But since my tweets resulted in at least one concerned call, documenting that I am ok.
Appreciate the care/concern/check ins!
The pain is much more tolerable.
Actually got some sleep.
Am hoping to go back to sleep. But since my tweets resulted in at least one concerned call, documenting that I am ok.
Appreciate the care/concern/check ins!

When one feels terrible physically, the relief from pain or return of normal senses is such a relief, blessing, generates incredible gratitude. I admit I went thru a few years with anger at limitations from pain and such. Now grateful for the good days. https://www.practicalpainmanagement.com/treatments/psychological/chronic-pain-psychological-stages-grief
Many non-pharma practices are ridiculed by certain folks in mainstream medicine
That said, we have had an opioid crisis destroying so many lives
Yes, I do deep breathing and positive imagery along with the strongest non-opioid NSAIDs available to cope https://www.practicalpainmanagement.com/treatments/psychological/chronic-pain-psychological-stages-grief
That said, we have had an opioid crisis destroying so many lives
Yes, I do deep breathing and positive imagery along with the strongest non-opioid NSAIDs available to cope https://www.practicalpainmanagement.com/treatments/psychological/chronic-pain-psychological-stages-grief
Also, mindfulness has helped me feel what is going on and admit to myself and others when I need to step back & take care of self.
My professional training taught me to take a day off was to betray colleagues and patients
= a source of shame.
In fact: https://www.ehstoday.com/safety-leadership/article/21918281/presenteeism-costs-business-10-times-more-than-absenteeism
My professional training taught me to take a day off was to betray colleagues and patients
= a source of shame.
In fact: https://www.ehstoday.com/safety-leadership/article/21918281/presenteeism-costs-business-10-times-more-than-absenteeism
The toxic shaming in #healthcare culture - wrongly telling workers that taking a day off is âlacking professionalismâ or ânot caringâ enough about patients or âdumping onâ colleagues, is, in fact, unsafe.
#MedTwitter @_HarryPaul_ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2947637/
#MedTwitter @_HarryPaul_ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2947637/
It is one of myriad ways âprofessionalismâ and those whose job it is to define & enforce it make #healthcare & #hospitals unsafe for patients and staff alike. It is why I have become increasingly outspoken on weaponized professionalism.
Recently submitted these:
Recently submitted these:
In med school, I never was at risk of passing out in the OR, but I often almost passed out on long rounds in not air conditioned public wards in Pakistan (blood pooling in dilated vessels my legs and not making it to my brain).
We are taught to be embarrassed @vivek_soi https://twitter.com/vivek_soi/status/1316057003471577088
We are taught to be embarrassed @vivek_soi https://twitter.com/vivek_soi/status/1316057003471577088
So yesterday, when felt like was about to pass out, had these types of practiced ways of dealing with it
Squat
Lower self to the floor (before hitting floor)
And when a med school buddy calls âAre ok? Can I call anyone?â
Hang tough, âIâll be fineâ
I rarely/never accept help https://twitter.com/vivek_soi/status/1316065949204779011
Squat
Lower self to the floor (before hitting floor)
And when a med school buddy calls âAre ok? Can I call anyone?â
Hang tough, âIâll be fineâ
I rarely/never accept help https://twitter.com/vivek_soi/status/1316065949204779011
There is so much hazing & #bullying within medicine, that âshowing weaknessâ (meaning acknowledging human needs or any illness) is seen as âwhiningâ
it does attract the brutes and victims to brutalize you when you are down, often in name of âprofessionalismâ
#MedTwitter #MedEd
it does attract the brutes and victims to brutalize you when you are down, often in name of âprofessionalismâ
#MedTwitter #MedEd
To the extreme, this outcome, when
1-the system resources are overwhelmed
2-impossible load is put on an individual doc
3-when monitoring self/health or asking for help is shamed
The way professionalism taught, often anti- #mentalhealth & pushes to this https://www.nytimes.com/2020/07/11/nyregion/lorna-breen-suicide-coronavirus.html
1-the system resources are overwhelmed
2-impossible load is put on an individual doc
3-when monitoring self/health or asking for help is shamed
The way professionalism taught, often anti- #mentalhealth & pushes to this https://www.nytimes.com/2020/07/11/nyregion/lorna-breen-suicide-coronavirus.html
I fight fire with fire
Those who teach professionalism who make âcasesâ & public examples of doctors & nurses for showing humanity
like in this thread when @DGlaucomflecken was targeted
I do respond in public with evidence
I have contacted universities teaching thru shaming https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1256717930395570176
Those who teach professionalism who make âcasesâ & public examples of doctors & nurses for showing humanity
like in this thread when @DGlaucomflecken was targeted
I do respond in public with evidence
I have contacted universities teaching thru shaming https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1256717930395570176
We have to stop toxicity actively taught within #MedEd #medicine
Nurses & doctors are human. We are safer & offer higher quality care when allowed to admit to being human. Smiling, dancing, taking a sick day: all ok & healthy
If making an allegation vs someone, use standards https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1256711372966109187
Nurses & doctors are human. We are safer & offer higher quality care when allowed to admit to being human. Smiling, dancing, taking a sick day: all ok & healthy
If making an allegation vs someone, use standards https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1256711372966109187
When holding behavior police accountable to their own standards, can be seen or called âbullyingâ...but if enforce it on others, same can be done to you 
if non-clinicians make âcasesâ of practicing clinicians, w/out consent
= âcaseâ of âprofessionalismâ & âethicsâ as harm

if non-clinicians make âcasesâ of practicing clinicians, w/out consent
= âcaseâ of âprofessionalismâ & âethicsâ as harm
I have held multiple clinical leadership positions with disciplinary authority over fellow clinicians, from Chair of state âProvider Review Committeeâ to Chief Medical Officer. I have gone out of my way to only take an action if there is credible evidence based on a standard.
This pinned tweet is very popular
If we want this to be true, we need reform of #medicine #healthcare #meded #AcademicTwitter #AcademicChatter #MedTwitter
We need to hold accountable, re-educate, and/or remove the faculty who are teaching thru shaming, anti- #MentalHealth etc https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1001789736414007296
If we want this to be true, we need reform of #medicine #healthcare #meded #AcademicTwitter #AcademicChatter #MedTwitter
We need to hold accountable, re-educate, and/or remove the faculty who are teaching thru shaming, anti- #MentalHealth etc https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1001789736414007296
It is easy to characterize clinicians as âwhinersâ which then activates the bullying of the Angelou quote above.
In fact, having been in more than one room where medical affairs budgets decided, I can verify this is true @danielleofri #MedTwitter https://www.nytimes.com/2019/06/08/opinion/sunday/hospitals-doctors-nurses-burnout.html
In fact, having been in more than one room where medical affairs budgets decided, I can verify this is true @danielleofri #MedTwitter https://www.nytimes.com/2019/06/08/opinion/sunday/hospitals-doctors-nurses-burnout.html
There are myriad reasons I am in b-school, not least is that this is not acceptable - it is not only unsafe for patients & clinicians, is unsustainable as a business model.
When people canât do their jobs (boards, CEOs), I get above them
@EricTopol https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/927811
When people canât do their jobs (boards, CEOs), I get above them
@EricTopol https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/927811
No, NOT a âbeautifulâ #business model - depleting your most credentialed workers w/ high #PTSD & #suicide among #clinicians yet is what I see in @LinkedIn
I may be a âTop Voiceâ x 4 & in top 1% as an #Influencer in #healthcare per #LinkedInâs #SoMe score
who signs budgets?
I may be a âTop Voiceâ x 4 & in top 1% as an #Influencer in #healthcare per #LinkedInâs #SoMe score
who signs budgets?
Yes, some of my @LinkedIn posts get >12K views. But the ones on physician suicide? ~200
How effective are we being on #SoMe or with @NEJM perspectives?
Are decision makers listening?
Iâve felt as powerless to prevent harm as #NYC physician leader Dr. Breen who died of suicide
How effective are we being on #SoMe or with @NEJM perspectives?
Are decision makers listening?
Iâve felt as powerless to prevent harm as #NYC physician leader Dr. Breen who died of suicide
Thing is, my chronic illnesses have been a blessing to protect against the God complex many doctors have. Had to admit am human. I have had to accept there are some things I cannot accomplish myself & times I will âfailâ - I have gotten over being shamed https://www.cmaj.ca/content/191/17/E478
Yes, have moments of extreme pain. I have exited clinical medicine. I have been shamed for my self care choices by fellow physicians. Have fought hard to protect my & othersâ ability to work vs wrong definitions of professionalism as @_HarryPaul_ describes https://www.explorethespaceshow.com/podcasting/harry-paul-on-disabilty-ableism/
Yes, I identified non-factual, unverified âprofessionalismâ policing by @USC @KeckMedUSC faculty @sarah_mojarad vs a Black male trainee
This non-factual hit piece written as retaliation by faculty âobsessedâ with her ânarrativeâ - âevidenceâ from 2013?
https://medium.com/@smojarad/online-harassment-death-by-1-000-tweets-731e47812625
This non-factual hit piece written as retaliation by faculty âobsessedâ with her ânarrativeâ - âevidenceâ from 2013?
https://medium.com/@smojarad/online-harassment-death-by-1-000-tweets-731e47812625
I recognize by being factual again, I will again draw this kind of retaliation w/ implications I am unfit to practice medicine thru innuendo
while I plainly state facts, standards
I do things in the open rather than by private messages or gossip or manipulate facts
Be factual
while I plainly state facts, standards
I do things in the open rather than by private messages or gossip or manipulate facts
Be factual
I invite you to look thru my threads & what I publish on to understand the source of my very deep concern
When I am up all night
am not obsessing over what others say/optics
have debilitating pain
I think hard about how to fix this system of harm
I write curricula like https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1307851096468131846
When I am up all night
am not obsessing over what others say/optics
have debilitating pain
I think hard about how to fix this system of harm
I write curricula like https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1307851096468131846
In the hit piece on me by @USCViterbi @USC faculty @Sarah_mojarad, I was misquoted on boundaries just like someone elseâs actions in 2013 was part âevidenceâ used vs me
This is what I have to say on boundaries: break those gendered behavior police impose #WomenInSTEM https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1265425020551077888
This is what I have to say on boundaries: break those gendered behavior police impose #WomenInSTEM https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1265425020551077888
I seem be a popular target - just called a âterroristâ by equally non-factual right wing âpatriotâ
this is how I responded
I donât delete
I document factually, w/out innuendo
clear evidence
offer references & proofs from external authorities & standards https://www.linkedin.com/posts/usnehal_friday-reflections-with-dr-umbereen-sultana-activity-6722454401052635136-nyj0
this is how I responded
I donât delete
I document factually, w/out innuendo
clear evidence
offer references & proofs from external authorities & standards https://www.linkedin.com/posts/usnehal_friday-reflections-with-dr-umbereen-sultana-activity-6722454401052635136-nyj0
Am curious why schools like @usc @USCViterbi - my fatherâs alma mater - engage in the same repeated online #SciComm behavior against minority physicians as above
Do schools intend to use non-licensed clinicians to start witch hunts vs licensed clinicians
Am I really the enemy?
Do schools intend to use non-licensed clinicians to start witch hunts vs licensed clinicians
Am I really the enemy?
I canât tell you how many such messages I get in private from doctors & nurses
afraid
non-clinical & non-licensed âprofessionalismâ police harm/abuse clinicians daily
thru disciplinary actions via a license
Gossip & innuendo harm individuals & the system when clinicians leave
afraid
non-clinical & non-licensed âprofessionalismâ police harm/abuse clinicians daily
thru disciplinary actions via a license
Gossip & innuendo harm individuals & the system when clinicians leave
For years, I hid illnesses
I proudly touted stats: I trained pre-work hour restrictions, admitted 22 patients + crossover with no team or night float. All me
Or: LP on no sleep x 1 week, hand shaking but got it
Really?
?
Things to brag about?
Yes, if ableist culture
I proudly touted stats: I trained pre-work hour restrictions, admitted 22 patients + crossover with no team or night float. All me

Or: LP on no sleep x 1 week, hand shaking but got it

Really?

Things to brag about?
Yes, if ableist culture
Given how outspoken I am in identifying fellow faculty (ones building career on image & âprofessionalismâ)are not factual & use no standards
even taking on these part of healthcare that gets doctors & nurses fired for exactly what I am doing
yes, lots of attempted retaliation
even taking on these part of healthcare that gets doctors & nurses fired for exactly what I am doing
yes, lots of attempted retaliation
The infamous #Medbikini study used med students & residents reviewers, including ones who were minority
in same way that compliance is full of women, often policing other women based on rules written by men
Hiring a woman is not enuf if system the same https://www.chicagotribune.com/opinion/commentary/ct-opinion-medbikini-movement-doctors-professionalism-20200803-z353smu5mrfc7cno4chrsz5m3m-story.html
in same way that compliance is full of women, often policing other women based on rules written by men
Hiring a woman is not enuf if system the same https://www.chicagotribune.com/opinion/commentary/ct-opinion-medbikini-movement-doctors-professionalism-20200803-z353smu5mrfc7cno4chrsz5m3m-story.html
This remains true. The system needs to either be dismantled or thoroughly reformed.
The results we have are a logical result of resource allocation, systems, incentives, processes.
The results we have are a logical result of resource allocation, systems, incentives, processes.
Letâs obsess less over what âpeople sayâ
Letâd not teach âopticsâ to the next generation of doctors or #STEM
Letâs not craft ânarrativesâ to avoid accountability on harm.
Letâs start to care about real things like life, death, harm, waste
Letâs admit when we fail to improve https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1278087408412696579
Letâd not teach âopticsâ to the next generation of doctors or #STEM
Letâs not craft ânarrativesâ to avoid accountability on harm.
Letâs start to care about real things like life, death, harm, waste
Letâs admit when we fail to improve https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1278087408412696579
I have been in many jobs, many roles, many states and countries.
I am deeply, deeply concerned by the state of healthcare in America.
I wonât defend the walls of harm from the inside and perpetuate harm.
Letâs âhackâ healthcare
Failure is manifest https://anchor.fm/the-state-of-healthcare/episodes/Hacking-Healthcare-with-Umbereen-S--Nehal--MD--MPH-ehn3hi
I am deeply, deeply concerned by the state of healthcare in America.
I wonât defend the walls of harm from the inside and perpetuate harm.
Letâs âhackâ healthcare
Failure is manifest https://anchor.fm/the-state-of-healthcare/episodes/Hacking-Healthcare-with-Umbereen-S--Nehal--MD--MPH-ehn3hi
I break a lot of the rules on how to hide parts of myself to be âpopularâ or per professionalism, marketing, or reputation management types
Yet, I broke the glass ceiling, am a 4x Top Voice, 230K followers, top 1% in #healthcare
=authenticity respected
Yet, I broke the glass ceiling, am a 4x Top Voice, 230K followers, top 1% in #healthcare
=authenticity respected
In a #pandemic I achieve this reach along with @DrTomFrieden or @sandrogalea to disseminate facts-based engaging posts on #COVID19
able to communicate in a way that gets thru to #business #leaders, where risk-averse #STEM & #SciComm often fail
https://www.linkedin.com/posts/sylviaromm_linkedintopvoices-worldhealthday-activity-6653377787581259777-zU2k
able to communicate in a way that gets thru to #business #leaders, where risk-averse #STEM & #SciComm often fail
https://www.linkedin.com/posts/sylviaromm_linkedintopvoices-worldhealthday-activity-6653377787581259777-zU2k
It is not uncommon for a woman + minority speaking unapologetically about facts to be called impolite or even âa bully.â
Others must experience this cuz this post got >12K views.
We need more real talk, less narrative, reputation management, or optics https://www.linkedin.com/posts/usnehal_i-think-that-what-our-society-teaches-young-activity-6721779946743730176-9yCg
Others must experience this cuz this post got >12K views.
We need more real talk, less narrative, reputation management, or optics https://www.linkedin.com/posts/usnehal_i-think-that-what-our-society-teaches-young-activity-6721779946743730176-9yCg
Nursing is primarily women and we need to be able and willing to hear women say things we donât want to hear.
We need doctors and administrators to be real, hear/respect nurses, students, cleaning staff
We know this is coming. We saw what this looked like. https://twitter.com/epflcswccm/status/1317449607094423552
We need doctors and administrators to be real, hear/respect nurses, students, cleaning staff
We know this is coming. We saw what this looked like. https://twitter.com/epflcswccm/status/1317449607094423552
Yes, this was a mammoth thread.
But I am lying flat to avoid a repeat of last night.
I am awake and have been for many hours.
I keep hoping if I keep trying to fit the puzzle pieces together I will figure it out.
I donât feel as much pain when I focus on problem solving.
But I am lying flat to avoid a repeat of last night.
I am awake and have been for many hours.
I keep hoping if I keep trying to fit the puzzle pieces together I will figure it out.
I donât feel as much pain when I focus on problem solving.
A bit afraid to try getting up. I am okay when horizontal. But I have SO much to do!!! The âfirehoseâ does not shut off just cuz one has an #endometriosis flare @MITSloanFellows @MITSloan @mit https://twitter.com/usnehal/status/1316972347761590272
Please read this thread
Being an #ally to #BlackintheIvory is chat on Zoom, yes
as well as system level
If you are an ally making changes at a system level you are then changing resource allocation, asking quality for
spent
you may make enemies, not get trophies https://twitter.com/docpatteachone/status/1317448295896276994
Being an #ally to #BlackintheIvory is chat on Zoom, yes
as well as system level
If you are an ally making changes at a system level you are then changing resource allocation, asking quality for

you may make enemies, not get trophies https://twitter.com/docpatteachone/status/1317448295896276994