I choose to continue (;)
Why did I cut myself? I felt like I belonged nowhere, nobody liked me and I was a slut :)
Have I ever had sex? No
I used a rusted paper knife, because I thought if it was rusted, it’d cause the cut to get septic and would kill me sooner. https://twitter.com/hechvee/status/1316768438677766145

Did I actually want to d*e? No, I just wanted to feel the pain, my emotional pain get shifted to something physical.
It would hurt and burn my skin as the knife pierced through it, I would feel the blood gush and wipe it off, with a paper from my school notebook.

Tried going to therapy, but I was only prescribed medicines, when all I wanted was someone to talk to and some empathy. My mother used to suffer, when I frantically searched for the knife, I almost had a fight w her for it (major regret)

Not that I’d cut myself before her, I used to do it in my school and got caught redhanded (funnily) by our school counsellor who wanted to take me to the principal for such a heinous act :) I begged and pleaded her to not do it,and so, she didn’t.

I don’t remember what happened, but I woke up one day and decided that I deserved to live, I threw all my anti-depressants away and miraculously I survived. I was 16 then, I’m 22 now! In a much better space, feeling loved.

Do I wanna say something to people who are feeling like how I did previously? Yes, hold on. ‘Hope is a thing with feathers’, it’s going to be really hard but trust me, you’d be grateful that you didn’t let go. The future holds a lot of amazing things for you.

Don’t let your past or present ruin your future. You will feel loved, belonged, you have a place in this earth and you will find it too! Chin up, wipe your tears you are strong, you have the potential to kill a thousand elephant-sized obstacles! I believe in you.

Your accomplishments matter, you matter, your life matters. Smile, you deserve a lot of love and happiness and you will get to experience it one day, but don’t you give up before you get what you deserve! Don’t you let go of the fight, you’re here to win! I LOVE YOU

Thanks @hechvee for this chance, I love you girl! I’m proud of you
Also, this thread isn’t for sympathy purposes, I’m over it and I wear my scar as a badge of valour! The semicolon isn’t a tattoo, however I’m planning to get one in that spot :)