For years tinatago ko to. all the trauma i’ve suffered and for what? for people to put the blame on me?

I didn’t even know if valid yung nararamdaman ko. that’s why i never opened up about it

wala talaga akong balak gumawa ng thread or ipublicize to bc i dont want to get attention sa gantong issue but finding out na all this time ???? ako pala masama sa mata ng iba ???? while i silently suffer dahil sa trauma na nabigay sa akin????

You had access to my twitter even after we broke up, so u saw the dm of someone asking “momol tayo” to which i replied “i might only think of (*****) ehh” so you were enticed by that which led u to ask me to why not momol irl nalang

it went from that to you asking for my nudes to confirm it and it even went all the way to you asking me to go to a house you know to hook up

you might think that i really wanted it. but I now only realized that you used my feelings for you to get what you wanted, which were my pics

for 2 years, nakasakal pa rin siya sa akin, i react differently sa bagay bagay but all i ever wanted was to be free and feel at peace to be finally free from him

When the June thing happened dito sa twitter, I comtemplated about opening up. Pero unsure rin if overreacting lang ba ako or valid talaga yung feelings ko abt that

but what if he apologized only for the sake of not being exposed?

for years ive been letting this fester in my own head kasi baka di naman pala valid yung iniisip at nararamdaman ko and i was so afraid that people might not believe me anyway???

and it turns out people dont believe me nga

kaya di ako papayag na iinvalidate lang nga mga tao yung trauma na nasuffer ko

tAPOS YOUR FRIENDS?! have the guts and the absolute gall to defend you now when they weren’t even friends with you when this happened to me

oo i admit na may pagka toxic yung way of communication ko dati pero for you to invalidate my feelings just because he’s your friend and you believe just like that??

also I found out that for almost the entire relationship he wasnt even in love with me, he said he isn’t good with endings .. he wasn’t even in love with me, pero the whole time he was seeking sexual gratification.

whenever he mistreated me, whenever he would verbally abuse me. screaming at me saying hurtful words and you would curse at me. I would always ask advice from my friends because i honestly didnt know if i was right or wrong anyway.

you would gaslight me saying that im just overreacting when im sad about you screaming at me. and would say “you should be better” hypocritical of you because you’d say “eh this is the way i am, kung di mo yun tanggap, di mo ako tanggap"

AND ME BEING THE LOVESICK DUMB BITCH I AM, I endured all of his toxicity to prove na I love him

and you would confront me saying “bat mo ako sinisiraan sa mga kaibigan mo?!” maybe i had a pretty bad reputation for changing up stories, and yes people change

but why would i make this shit up now lang? bakit ko papatagalin ng 3 years? because I do not want my experience to end up happening to another. I reall didnt want to, but I cannot stay silent while you feed lies to people saying that I’m the bad guy.

I never wanted to publisize this, I really didn’t. but after seeing na ako pa yung masama while I suffer from the trauma from your verbal abuse, and constant gaslighting, all the hurtful words and curses you’ve told me, and this whole thread doesn’t even scratch the surface on

how toxic you were to me

so Oskar, i hope you did change, because i believe people change nga. I didn’t even want to make this thread and I do not ask for anyone to cut ties or stop supporting him. All I ask is for my feelings to never be invalidated anymore