I desperately miss my #SyrCrunch family. My distress over the reality that even if a season gets going I might not be able justify the risk of going - despite what I am *positive* will be rigorous standards by the org - is sometimes overwhelming.

I& #39;m around humans every day who still don& #39;t believe this is a big deal. I hear "it& #39;s just like the flu" on a daily basis. I& #39;ve had to firmly enforce mask requirements and sanitizing with other adults. There& #39;s so much immature selfishness.

This is exhausting, and, to be honest, dealing with these humans doesn& #39;t give me a lot of confidence in attending an AHL game. The org WILL put out rules and make policies, and they WILL be good ones, but that human element can& #39;t be removed. It& #39;s what got us here.

Every time there& #39;s a spike at SUNY Oswego or in the Oswego community I worry about my mom. I& #39;m constantly reminding her to be safe, wear her mask, sanitize when she gets home from places. Yet I& #39;m then going to go to an AHL game with thousands of other people? Yeah, okay.

Not going is the only surefire way to be safe. But I& #39;m feeling so off kilter without it. I know there& #39;s a lot more going on, and so many of us are facing much bigger problems. But this is certainly a large missing thing right now in my life, and I just don& #39;t know what to do.