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The will of God hurts 
When My Mother died . I didn't cry at All. My Mother wrote a letter of What I will do and not do. She knew it was going to happen. I was 18 ,siblings 7 and 8 . Turned out my Dad had her followed all Week. 7 Gunshot infront of us, she was gone. My Grandma died at the same day.
Its been 7 years of watching her going to the Dr twice a month. That's how we kept her. Because I didn't want her to die only knowing pain that her children all died. Her Husband never wanted her. So I made sure she was Happy. So she can forget that pain .
I wanted to do so much for her. When I went Home in May. I made sure for the first time we had Ceiling. For the first time we had Tiles. I built an outside kitchen for her. Renovated Everything . Spoiled her so crazy .
We used to laugh at that Heineken White Gogo on the advert with a Recliner couch and she would say she wanna feel those kinder couches. I bought her one. Renovated her Room.
Would always tell her to not die on us so soon because I wanna do so much for her. Thats why I took on this Overseas Teaching job.
She would always say "Hayi ntombi ugqibile , alikho ikhehlekazi elonwabe njengam "
Yeah The Dr wamvala ekutyeni ezinye izinto but How can she not. Ekhule engazazi. And ezi afforda ngoku.
Anyway she got really sick in 218 . Suffering from Ulcers. So I was scared she was going to die . So I did this 98th Birthday party
Yes. She was 100 this year but she was the only Parent We were left with.
I don't know how I will raise a 15 and a 14 y/o without her.
I've never really stayed with them for a long time.
I started working at 18. While I finished my studies.
I don't know how I will raise a 15 and a 14 y/o without her.
I've never really stayed with them for a long time.
I started working at 18. While I finished my studies.
We were just joking that in December , she has to be on an Aeroplane nakanjani. For her 100th Birthday as We didn't have a Celebration because I was renovating endlini.
When I left Last week . She asked me to move my wardrobe in her room so I will have my own space and not sleep with my Lil sister. She made a Lame excuse ba No. She just wanna watch over my clothes as my siblings might wear them. Uzozigada. Anyone I was confused but I agreed.
When I was stuck in S.A and not getting Paid . Girl bendixhelela inkukhu every weekend even though we had meat everyday . Xandizohamba wandixhelela iGusha saying "Kaloku wena ungowalapha , azanga bakufuna kulo Tatakho asizobanyanzela ke. Mna ndiyazikhulisela" .
We had so much Fun I even forgot I was broke and stuck .
She lets me leave sana, within 2 days of Arrival. She gets rushed to Hospital. Fast forward Day 5 . She is gone.
How do I lead this family at 26? . How do I mother these children with an age difference of only 10 years.
What Hurts the most is that I might not even bury you Mamqade . Yhoo Timing yakho sana !! .
RIP My Last Love.
