Coworker X, who triggered my RSD by making it clear they thought I was SUPER annoying, has been trying to make amends, which is nice, but since this isn& #39;t the first time they& #39;ve made me feel like shit, I& #39;m wary. I& #39;m normal with everyone else, but they get limited engagement.
From time to time, part of me feels like acting normal (for me) because ANY suppression of my true nature is exhausting. Basically, I create a hypervigilant inhibitory process that prevents me from saying the funny or silly or outrageous thing that popped into my head.
I can do it, but it& #39;s a burden. I& #39;d rather just forgive and forget, but ignoring red flags is how I& #39;ve been hurt countless times in the past. If the relationship doesn& #39;t end, then I inevitably move on. That can be a nice part of having a shitty working memory.