Today’s #Charmed’s second anniversary!

For this I want to share something I don’t think I have talked about yet.

Before the reboot was announced, I think in 2017, I was at a very a low place mentally. Things started getting out of my hand, I felt like a complete failure 1/?

And I was just overall very depressed. I was still in high school in a very homophobic town so I was struggling with my sexuality, a LOT! When I heard about the reboot, I became so happy and my mood became a lot better, however I was still struggling.

I’m 2018, around January-February was the deepest point of my life. My grandpa got diagnosed with a rare heart disease and we spent majority of our time in the hospital with him.

My grades dropped, no one really cared about my struggles, everyone at school just expected me

To do well, no excuses and I decided to move in silence. I’m not a person who likes to let others know about their emotions, so I completely shut out everyone. It was March when I tried to commit suicide. I just wanted to end my suffering.

Then, something in me told me not to throw away anything, greater things are coming. In May, my grandpa was released from hospital and eve though he didn’t recover he was feeling a lot better. Then, my grades went up and the trailer for Charmed got released.

Things were going so well and I was just happy. Charmed was there and it comforted me. I immediately saw myself in Mel Vera, but later I saw bits of me in every sister!

Macy, being socially awkward and a nerd, I saw myself in her. Mel being gay, i felt represented. And her dedication to witchcraft. Maggie being an awkward social butterfly, and very much a part of my generation. I fell in love with all these characters

And the chemistry between the actresses! It was something so magical for me! Charmed really got me through some tough time and it healed me.

Fast forward to 2019, there were two tragical events occurring in my life. In April I have lost my grandpa due to his heart condition and in may I’ve lost my father. I didn’t have time to mourn them enough because I knew my job as the eldest sibling, I had to be there

For my family, my mom my grandma and my younger siblings. Even at that time, Charmed really got me through it all! And when the second season aired, the show changed and the reason why I was acting so mean is because I didn’t want a show

That felt so personal to me change. If sometimes I was rude or I offended people, I really want to apologise for my behaviour. I was just trying to hold onto something because I was not ready to let another thing go in my life.

So to end this thread on a brighter note. I wish #Charmed a happy birthday! And I wanna congratulate the actors, the creators and the crew for bringing magic into our lives!

But most importantly, thank you @missmads @Melonie_Diaz @sarahjeffery for being there for me

And helping me through my tough times with your work. You are all so appreciated! K, bye I love y’all and HAPPY BIRTHDAY #CHARMED