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Jiang Cheng’s life turned for the worse, the last one was a terrible break-up, but nothing compare to the loss of his family, and he couldn’t take no more grief and suffering for his broken heart.
And so, he resorted to alcohol and pills to numb the pain as he spiral down into
And so, he resorted to alcohol and pills to numb the pain as he spiral down into
depression.
Until one night, as he slept after hours of crying and taking a sleeping pill, he encountered someone in a dream. And that person gave him the blissful life he ever wanted — undying happiness and another new emerging love.
But sadly, it was all a dream.
Until one night, as he slept after hours of crying and taking a sleeping pill, he encountered someone in a dream. And that person gave him the blissful life he ever wanted — undying happiness and another new emerging love.
But sadly, it was all a dream.
And he became so addicted by this new affair that his intaking of sleeping pills increased every night. To the point he also ingest them during daytime.
“You should stop taking too much of them, A-Cheng,” the other man reprimanded him sternly. “They’re damaging to your health.”
“You should stop taking too much of them, A-Cheng,” the other man reprimanded him sternly. “They’re damaging to your health.”
He shook his head. “But I want to see you so badly.”
The man sighed. “You need not to worry, my dearest.” He kissed the crown of his forehead. “I’m not going anywhere. You’ll still be able to see me in your dreams.”
“But I don’t want this to be a dream!” he wailed pitifully.
The man sighed. “You need not to worry, my dearest.” He kissed the crown of his forehead. “I’m not going anywhere. You’ll still be able to see me in your dreams.”
“But I don’t want this to be a dream!” he wailed pitifully.
Then he hid his face on his chest while clutching onto the other’s clothes. “I don’t want this dream to end, Huan-ge. I want to just sleep forever and live here instead.”
He sniffed as he looked up into those brown eyes, shimmering a golden hue against a beam of sunlight.
He sniffed as he looked up into those brown eyes, shimmering a golden hue against a beam of sunlight.
“You said... there is a place with otherworldly beauty.” Lan Huan tensed, the grip on the other’s waist tightening as his eyes showed trepidation. “A place so vastly different from the world outside, and so much more than what my dreams could offer.”
Jiang Cheng then held his
Jiang Cheng then held his
hands together and squeezed them firmly. “And you said that a soul like mine will be free of worldly chains of suffering, and will find everlasting peace and joy as they enter there.”
Then he kissed his lips gently. “I have decided that I shall come with you before I wake up.”
Then he kissed his lips gently. “I have decided that I shall come with you before I wake up.”
Alas, Lan Huan broke free from his shocked trance and shook his head. “A-Cheng, I cannot do that. It’ll be against the orders.”
“But have you not told me I deserve the best in life?!” he snapped angrily as he shook him. “Have you not said that I don’t deserve this hell?!”
“But have you not told me I deserve the best in life?!” he snapped angrily as he shook him. “Have you not said that I don’t deserve this hell?!”
Before sobbing uncontrollably. “Have you not whispered against my ear that you shall not forsaken me like everyone else...? Where is your promise now?”
And Lan Huan was torn who and what he’ll choose over the other. Though being with his Jiang Cheng for months had already
And Lan Huan was torn who and what he’ll choose over the other. Though being with his Jiang Cheng for months had already
beckoned him into temptation and mortal desires. And so, how can he say “no” to his beloved?
Cradling tenderly his face, he brushed away the tears from those sunken cheeks before kissing him sweetly. “Of course, I have not forgotten. I do wish to fulfill my promise. And perhaps,
Cradling tenderly his face, he brushed away the tears from those sunken cheeks before kissing him sweetly. “Of course, I have not forgotten. I do wish to fulfill my promise. And perhaps,
now is the right time.”
Blue eyes shone with hope upon the statement. Before closing them as he leaned in to the cool touch of his hands. His body relaxing as he levitate along with Lan Huan, and he felt as light as a cloud.
“Come now, my darling. I’ll carry you to paradise.”
Blue eyes shone with hope upon the statement. Before closing them as he leaned in to the cool touch of his hands. His body relaxing as he levitate along with Lan Huan, and he felt as light as a cloud.
“Come now, my darling. I’ll carry you to paradise.”
And before the sun broke out, Jiang Cheng took his very last breath, sighing happily Lan Huan’s name as his lips curled into a smile, a single tear rolling down from his closed eyes.
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