I don't really post on twitter other then me posting a live stream for my gaming streams. But lately I've been wanting to open up because I feel trapped in my head suffering Depression and Anxiety. #MentalHealthAwareness

I recently Left the best job I've ever had being a Sales Supervisor of #BestBuy at store 1017. This was the hardest decisions I made but it felt like the new manager and new ASM really wanted me out. I tried hanging on but they found a weakness. #health

I have been diagnosed with Foot Neuropathy due to my type 2 diabetes. So during #COVID19 #BestBuy had changed direction on how we conducted business. So we had a point where I was up front greeting ppl for 8 hours. Not moving around was really affecting my pain.

It was basically me all the time none of the other mangers helped or try to cover for me only my geeksquad manger and mobile but other then that our GM and ASM were always in the back avoiding situations. They didn't help out because they said they did their time already.

So after months Ive had enough. I made a decision to leave even though I loved my job I couldn't do it with the mangers we had. I was never offered help and when my grandfather passed away they didn't report my #breavement leave to HR instead they made me use the last of my PTO.

That's were I drew the line at a time I needed help the most I had no #support . There's alot more I can go in to detail but this thread isn't about #bestbuy it's about #MentalHealth . You see after me being unemployed. I've felt worthless.

I felt like I have failed my wife and my kids. I started thinking about how I ended up like my father. I've tried talking it out but I can't seem to get out of the #darkplace I feel trapped with no escape options available to me.

I started looking at new jobs and everytime I go to #Indeed I just see nothing but jobs asking for degree or qualifications I don't have. Not only that I live in a #smalltown with not alot of opportunity so jobs a limited on what's available.

So with that I get down more due to thinking I had the best job before and now I won't find something that made as happy as I was at #BestBuy . But I'm trying to keep my mind busy thinking what can I do to make me happy.

I wanted to study to get a IT Certification so I can start my own #pcrepair shop and go back to #design and making some shirts on the side. But I can't seem to get motivated to start. It's scary how #depression can change you of a total 360 of a person you use to be.

With deep darkness consuming me I find myself lost. But recently I've been on #youtube looking at all my old videos reminiscing on the #olddays.

Then I found my old music I use to listen to that would help me escape my dark prison. #kidcudi and #Logic . That really helped me think differently about the situation I was in. @Logic301 @KidCudi

I sat down and started reevaluating my scinero I was in and started turning some negatives into positive. So I started getting new ideas new things to help me get through and things to keep me busy until a new job comes along.

I will be starting a #podcast on #youtube and I will be streaming some gameplay more on #twitch at #sxthhokage but my first episode will be about #MentalHealth and go more into detail about how I managed to battle it.

I want to help others that are going through it but haven't found that way out. I want people to know I was in their shoes and some times those shoes can slip back on but we can fall and trip over the laces. We need to overcome these obstacles. #positvevibes

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Other then that I hope everyone is well and if you are going through some things and can't escape I'm telling you your not alone speak up and you'll be surprise the response you get back. Stay positive and hang in there. #MentalHealthAwareness #positivity