Thread by @MochiiShiima, Hi, I have something I would like to share. The reason I [...]

Hi, I have something I would like to share. The reason I am making this thread is to inform people about the hurtful and manipulative things Kaji and Taku did to me and some others who will remain anonymous.

Here is also the full thread in pdf form.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1-BUzMXsI9N4kCWF5pHGvgYJ_d2px0pzIuviKimAByjQ/edit

(The anonymous minor’s experience: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1JdsOgvElgOu2a5lld-JZue6qtu_fWxNl/view)

I was initially good friends with Taku and Kaji, also known as @/kirishinkou and @/araikaji. I really felt like I could trust them. As time went on, our friendship began to feel more one sided and I began trying to get their attention or being active as much as I could to involve

myself, doing things I hoped would keep our friendship, such as apologizing even if I knew I didn’t have to. I made choices that weren't explicitly expressing how I felt with certain things or conveying my discomfort towards their actions to me.

Some being me pushing myself down to appease what I really thought was accurate and friendly criticism towards me and they were just caring and looking out for me, like friends do. But looking back now, I regret a lot of things.

I know at the time I trusted, I cared, and I respected these two individuals. Their opinions and words always mattered above mine.

There were other occurrences that made me feel very uncomfortable. We started a seemingly harmless "family" dynamic. Kaji and Taku named themselves the “parents”.

Then, they would call me various pet names, most used “kitten” and other times they called me their “daughter” “baby” “child”. Eventually due to my own discomfort I began to distanced myself from them, resulting in arguments.

At first, the issues weren't much more than small disagreements, but in one particular situation, Taku and Kaji made some very rude comments towards me, calling me “mentally stressed” and “annoying”, so I decided to take a break from the server, just by not talking.

I then was blocked on Twitter by Taku and because of this, I decided to leave the server. I had had enough of it. I was confronted for leaving the server, and I know I was made to feel guilty for leaving.

I felt as though I had to feel bad for causing pain to them, for leaving the space I felt no longer comfortable in.

I then felt as though I had to return to the server because I continued to be targeted, this time for removing myself from the server.

Now, after reflecting on things they have said and done, I feel like I shouldn’t hide my discomfort in this. Even if I could’ve done more then; the facts are still there and the things I was told weren’t okay and not justifiable.

This comment made by Kaji had nothing to do with our conversation and even after this, they proceeded to talk about nsfw explicitly in front of or to us minors directly.

(And please excuse my display name in this screenshot, it was a joke a friend and I had on the previous night.)

They did this multiple times

They would kick us off the main chat, we still had access since it was a public main chat, to talk about nsfw related topics, even went as far as to send their own (censored) nsfw art and further back—

they sent a drawing which was very obviously explicit artwork, just with some areas blocked

I mentioned them calling me uncomfortable pet names; here are some examples:

Here is a full video of the repetitive pet names they called me on the server.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1u1W8OqHNd0j4w1bmVrfNEPKYu6SW1Xsp/view?usp=sharing

Here you can also see “ask your mother”, because at that time we were a “family”.

They constantly called me “kitten” on Discord and on Twitter/Instagram.

I never said anything about it, even if I felt extremely uncomfortable about it, like why would any adult call a minor such an intimate, and creepy nickname.

I do know that I did not say anything then, and I know they don't read minds and couldn't have known this, but I did approach this issue by leaving the space that made me feel uncomfortable, then faced backlash from it.

In retrospect, I know that what they were doing was gaslighting and manipulative and overall just very creepy, especially when I, and the others who were targeted, were the youngest people in the server.

This inappropriate comment is a major red flag, this wasn’t directed to me but to another minor on the server.

They also made a claim that I had been tracing the work of other artists. What I sent to the server was my own personal reference sheet. I had no intention of posting it elsewhere, or showing it to the public.

This was clearly a reference sheet for my own personal studies and use. Below is the reference sheet. The blacked-out image on the left is the reference.

These are personal notes and stuff for me to take note of, so that I can practice developing my own art style, but they were quick to assume that I was tracing it to steal other people’s art and claim it as my own.

And I wasn't. I would like to add here that Kaji herself did say it was okay. And what I have WAS private until they decided to spread it publicly. Not me, THEM.

I did delete it afterwards since I had no other use for it other than comparing my personal art and such but they decided to keep it. They always held their suspicions that I had been tracing against me, and are now using it to spread rumors.

With these rumors many people have unfollowed/blocked me and even dmed me of accusing me of tracing and I just don't know how many people they have told or are telling.

For them to give advice to us like this and then use that “tracing reference” against me hurt me a lot when it came to art. It's a horrible claim and it hurts to have people assume that about my art.

After my discomfort with Taku and Kaji grew, I removed them from my private account because I needed a space to rant about how I was feeling. Immediately after I was asked why, confirming that they were indeed removed.

Despite my attempts to distance myself, they still continued to ask me why I removed them off my private account and I felt bad because they made it seem like it was such a personal hit when all I wanted was distance from them.

I would like to remind everyone that they are more than double my age and for them getting worked up over being on a minors private account is strange to me.

They then took advantage of this private account and had someone screenshot the messages I wrote and to share it with them. They claim they took the screenshots themself, although I had already removed them before I posted. It wouldn’t have been possible.

They made a comment about how blocking someone is cowardly, a subtweet to the other anonymous minor, and they then blocked me and that was the time I decided to leave the server, as stated earlier.

I then apologized a few days later. Briefly, the reason I apologised was that I knew subtweeting about them was rude and stuff. Later then being told they have screenshots of my rants on priv.

My apology for the subtweet on main:

This is what I got as a response:

To break this down a bit,

Them mentioning that they told me not to trace for my own good even if I had told and showed them it was personal use, and I have proof of them encouraging that tracing for personal use is okay.

My private tweet really wasn't that hostile but even if it did offend them so much they weren't supposed to see it. And personally they saying “I have a few more problems with you, I can tell you if you want” kind of rubbed me the wrong way and I see it as creepy.

Especially since i have no idea what they are talking about and i really did not want that. Overall, them saying “and you don't get an apology from me…” “i did nothing wrong” is two issues in one.

They do owe me an apology for just being rude to me in general AND there are many wrong things they did. The “critiques” I got from the reference sheet I did not ask for, and the only thing they seem to be attached to is me “tracing”.

This was my follow up response:

They refused to do the bare minimum of apologizing for being rude to me in the server.

I am aware that the language I used in reference to Taku was not very polite, and that's why I only chose to talk about it on my private account after removing them from the account.

This is why I was confused as to their claim of having taken the screenshots themself.

This also being what I was apologizing for.

They made a comment about how blocking someone is cowardly, they then blocked me and that was the time I decided to leave the server, as stated earlier.

Kaji would also immediately dm me asking why I was removing them and I had to come up with excuses on why. I would like to say that the real reason I removed them was because I wanted private space to rant about and somewhere to be without them monitoring me all the time.

These are kajis responses to my apology.

My apology towards Kaji was also out of fear, as she and Taku have my personal information and she is an adult, a person who usually is believed over a minor, which is why I was scared to open up about this.

(here is a small disclaimer that there was a mistake found on page 18 of the doc where the part says “to comfort them and to.... the rest is to say help them go through what they were struggling with)

Yes, of course I see them as a packaged deal, they are together 24/7 and are dating. So I never knew who had what and who was showing what to who.

I felt incredibly guilty for leaving, when in reality I shouldn't have. They made me feel that way. They always guilt tripped me into feeling negative about things I did, made me feel obligated to apologize for things I didn't need to . To comfort them, and to help them

Go through what they were struggling with.

I cared so much for them and, in return, I got my trust broken in so many ways.

Now seeing, they were constantly manipulating me, they were always guilt tripping us and if things didn’t go the way they wanted, we would get yelled at. But it wasn't just me–there was the other person who faced this behavior as well.

I am a minor and they are adults. It’s their responsibility not to antagonise me for feeling uncomfortable, especially when they willingly decided to share the space we were in and to act maturely when I presented my feelings and made a choice to leave.

It was their responsibility to keep me at arms length and they failed to do so. Since then I’ve been paranoid and terrified of them. Because they were adults, they had everything against me, and I was left with no power.

I’ve lost friends because of this, all this caused accusations they CONTINUED to make even after I left.

Here you can see that they mention that they are no type to backtalk...BUT they continued to do so after I left the server the second time.

Telling people i was stealing art and tracing and that i had something to do with other issues regarding the server we were in, which i was not present at the time.

Taku also proceeded to talk behind my back, telling people I'm tracing art.

Afterwards, I had some discussions with some people about the situation, Taku was then called out in part of their actions in which they proceed to victimize themselves in this situation.

I wanted to quietly leave the server because it was a space that made me feel uncomfortable and unsafe. I then felt as though I had to return to the server because I continued to be targeted, this time /for/ leaving the server.

They told the server “oh I’ve been told some people don’t want me here”, when nobody in the server knew the full story. Well I did. I’ve been scared to tell people about this because I thought I was being over dramatic over this, but I wasn’t.

There was much more I had to open my eyes and see they had major red flags, gaslighting and just making me feel uncomfortable. Again, I am a minor and they are over the age of 28.

Since the day of the apology, I haven't spoken to them, and up to now they still continue to target and harass me, spread rumors about me, and purposefully cause me to lose friends and mutuals.

Some other things are not receiving any goods

Kaji, Taku and I (along with a third person) all discussed doing penpals with one another. Kaji and I agreed to an exchange around May 13th.

Later on May 22nd we exchanged addresses.

I had a watercolor denki piece commission done by an artist on May 16th. The piece wasn't able to be sent internationally by the artist.

Kaji offered to send it to me along with a “pen pal” package on May 23rd. For some explanation, I made an agreement with the artist and Kaji that they could send it to her, since Kaji had already committed to participating in pen pals and I thought that she would follow through.

Kaji did confirm to us that she will notify the artist when it arrives and will tell me when the package is being sent.

I gave them a lot of proof that I was taking this pen pal exchange seriously, eventually sending it. And I have pictures showing me assembling the package, and being at the post office. I sent it out on the 21st of July, and Kaji received it on 27th of August.

But on Kaji’s side, she has sent me no proof of a package being made OR telling me if she sent it.

She has claimed multiple times that she does wish to take it since she very much likes it, saying that she really loves it and was jealous about my commission while also stating that Taku would need to force her to give it up.

Below you can see them saying they are still preparing my mail. As of right now, nothing has arrived. I did my promise on my end and sent them a letter and some merch that I bought, only to not get anything in return.

Kaji asking for the penpal:

In these images, Kaji discusses shipping the letter and how much she loves my Denki artwork.

And here below is the only time she mentioned packages

These are the images I took before sending out the package:

This was the money statement of the package shipping being purchased at the post office.

Kaji sent these images after receiving the package:

A friend who has kept in contact with Kaji for me has also not received any word from them, both of us being left in the dark over the Denki piece she promised to send to me.

In all, I still haven't received the package after all this time. And well if she couldn't have sent it to me due to postal issues she should have at least offered to reimburse me for the price of the commission. Maybe send it back to the artist.

She has no right to keep it. It's not hers.

Since the deal was made that we stopped talking, but this agreement was in the works for months and if she plans to keep it she IS stealing.

In the process of us polishing this document we were brought to our attention about these recent tweets.

“Spreading lies” none of what i have been telling has been lies. They have been cold hard truths, the only “lies” that have been told were from THEM. Them claiming I was tracing art to steal and spreading it to people.

Tracing is actually a known and proven method of improving your art style, any artist learning will. And well, that's what I did, I privately referenced an art piece I liked

and only shared it to them in proof I was drawing that day and they went straight to the conclusion that I was tracing in a way to steal the art or style. I even told them it was a personal reference note sheet.

The reason I am making this is because even after I left they wouldn’t leave me alone and I've had enough, I want to feel comfortable on my page and with art again.

The only person who has been hostile really is them because I kept myself quiet while they were out there telling the world things I didn't do, I wanted things to be quiet but they wouldn't let things be.

I wanted my friends back too. I just wanted to inform those who care about these individuals' behaviors. During this all, I will admit it did take a big hit on my mental health too. It was overall just super stressing and overwhelming.

I do not condone or support any harassment or attacks towards them. This is just my way of showing my side and personal feelings about the events to clear the air. People are free to interpret this information as they wish

still, I do not believe anyone deserves to be treated like this.

Thank you for reading.