Really been feeling depressed lately

This my second streak

Moving on and on feels like dying and it's not like I wanted to feel that way. Thinking about that makes me feel helpless

I really don't want to die but I feel like I'm dying everytime.

Loneliness and helplessness feels painful like death.

Enjoying my hobbies on internet feels like false excitement now.

Enjoying hobbies feels like a slow sudden death because I let my guard down too much

Oh perhaps I've become something like a drug addict on internet, yes someone told me that I gave off that vibe, which is true.

Living so suffocating, I feel like I lose purpose in everything.

Perhaps it's too common for a problem　あwelp

I just hope I die a great death

I wish I can say I don't want to live anymore but I don't have the luxury.

It's not that I hate myself

Welp, when does drowning feels good, only when I am asleep

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