I’ve lost a sense of community to be honest, scottcord never filled in the gap and my thoughts have gotten darker and i’ve been more unstable
i have everything i want but in the same time i have nobody except a few friends to tell it to, i just feel...lost?

lost as in, i don’t know where i’m supposed to go from this point, smg4 discord really made me feel apart of a community but due to my lack of interest in the series, i’m just kinda stumbling around after getting banned for it because i was a retard and got myself banned

but i never knew i would miss it, never did, but i do now and boy i would want to go back and prevent myself
but i know that i can’t, there’s no taking back from what i did and even if i did return to it, it wouldn’t be the same anyway, people i used to talk to are much different

than i remembered, is this what depression is? i don’t know, but i sure as hell don’t like this feeling, the feeling of lostness in a sea of... noise, its cold and sorrow out here, i just wish i could go back and apologize for my mistakes
and maybe...just maybe, get accepted back

the server manager did say no to me returning for my mistake so...there truly is no hope for me
end of this thread, i get sad real easily, i don’t need to bring anyone down, i want to bring them up