Is this bad?

Like is it bad?

I can& #39;t tell anymore. I can& #39;t tell if it& #39;s real. The message is so overwhelming that I& #39;m not allowed to experience this, and I& #39;m a bad person for being hurt or talking about it, so I can& #39;t tell if it& #39;s true. I don& #39;t know if it& #39;s bad.

Every day I wish I could beg people to reassure me that this is really happening and it& #39;s bad. I& #39;m so messed up I I need to be reminded every day, which is probably why I talk about it so much. I just can& #39;t tell anymore if it& #39;s bad.