Story time of my first kiss and first almost bj
Tw// mentions of sex, not full consent ig? Like no proper discussion of it

So we were cuddling on the sofa watching twilight and like he kissed me I think on the forehead and the cheek and then kissed me on the lips

It was ok ig but then our teeth kept clashing and that wasn’t very good and he kept being idk too forceful or too fast with the kisses so ew

I climbed on top of him to continue this tbf awful make out session and tied my hair back bc it kept getting in the way

He kept grabbing my arse and moving his hands up my body to play with my bra and get to my breasts. Tbh that actually felt quite nice

So we kept kind a kissing I think and then he opened his belt and was like you wanna and I was like yeah I’ll try (this wasn’t the time my mum caught us like this was nothing this went awful lmao)

And so I tried to give good head which I’m pretty sure failed or he thought that we were gonna take it all the way and that was just a starter activity idefk at this point

Bc then he tried to finger me and stuff which actually didn’t feel bad even though I didn’t orgasm it was quite good but he should’ve gone slower

Realising now that he really needs to take his time with things like honestly it’s so bad

And then he was like you wanna gesturing to his dick and I was like I’m not sure so he fingered me some more and then decided I was too tight for his dick so when we actually do it we’re gonna have lube (it was so embarrassing bye)

And then we proceeded to make out badly some more with less teeth clashing but it really wasn’t great like help me guys,,, and that’s when he was on top of me and told me he loved me like wtf

And then my parents came home so we kinda like didn’t do anything for a bit and watched twilight

But I could tell he kept wanting to do things bc he kept trying to kiss me and I wasn’t up for it idk first time wasn’t great I wanna wait and do it right yk

So anyway like after the movie finished we were kissing again and then he gestured for me to give him a bj again

And I thought this time I was actually genuinely doing it right bc he kept moving my head down and he was moaning and he was playing with my tits yk

AND THEN MY MUM KNOCKED ON THE FUCKING DOOR

So we stopped and continued watching the rest of the twilight saga and cuddled until he left

So um this is it bye idk I feel weird about everyting tbh