I apologise if I've given you all the wrong impression here, but I am a B R O K E N man right now. I'm barely keeping it together. Organising during a plague is like staring the Devil in the eye.

I'm fussing over the tiniest of details to distract myself from the fact I have No Control over anything that actually matters.

On that note - I'm very carefully making a playlist of music to play during the half-hour before the service starts.

Nobody will notice or pay any attention to it, but it will be PERFECT.

I am currently being brutally reminded that my taste in religious music is heavily tilted towards the deeply depressing.

Had to stage a mini-intervention inside my own brain to stop myself adding this beautiful sadness to my baptism playlist: https://open.spotify.com/track/3quguZX6rYK4xmYRQJsIub?si=z4_eJoMLQZ6Y-oI_W-ko-w

This Is Not Baptism Vibes, Jay. Stop it. https://open.spotify.com/track/55RKhXrygmkQtahsOZkClV?si=8YeEE7hAQVm8_uXCpYInzA

This is? Not That Depressing? Kinda?
I like it. It's on the playlist. https://open.spotify.com/track/4gDNWotW5dWZZibSfYWEkY?si=QOSc4jW0RQaAdei4UWlwQw

(it may be removed from the playlist later.)

Once I showed a priest the contents of my hymn-filled spotify playlist called "Theological Crisis", and he just looked at me in horror and went "This is just all the depressing ones. This is a funeral playlist. You've made a funeral playlist."

Guess I'll be testing a number of playlist variants out on people who AREN'T melodramatic depressed poets.

You know. To check which one is the least unbearably sad.