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I thought about tweeting this over the past couple of days, but figured no one listens to me so there& #39;s no point. That feeling is one of the more minor symptoms of #depression and #anxiety. It& #39;s #WorldMentalHealthDay 
https://abs.twimg.com/hashflags... draggable="false" alt=""> and I want to stress how difficult it is to reach out for help.
Following a major event in 2017 that shut my life down, it has taken me a long time to get well enough to access help. When you& #39;re so low you just physically can& #39;t, people don& #39;t understand you can& #39;t just flip a switch. There& #39;re days when getting up and having a wash is Herculean.
So imagine having to be articulate enough to tell a stranger what& #39;s wrong. Imagine trying to fight off your imposter syndrome to do it. & #39;Oh you& #39;re well enough to whinge at a busy GP with cancer patients are ye? Wise up.& #39; You can& #39;t overcome your own self-cruelty.
Even if you could, imagine the damage is so great you& #39;ve lost words from your vocabulary. They& #39;re gone. You can see an image of how you feel but can& #39;t project it. You used to know the words and now there& #39;s a void. You feel stupid, pointless, what& #39;s the good of me taking up air?
It can take such a very long time to rise above these obstacles, but by then you& #39;ve convinced yourself that you& #39;re well again because some of the words came back, and you were the life and soul of that event that time, and aren& #39;t all these plans brilliant?
And crash. You& #39;re down again. You& #39;re not well after all. You were just in a one-step-forward moment and now is the two-steps-back. I& #39;ve cycled like this for four years now, perhaps for longer really, but it broke in 2016.
I have recently reached out because I got myself this far but I can& #39;t do the rest alone, and not this year. I& #39;m high-functioning so it& #39;s rare that anyone notices I& #39;m in bits inside. And it& #39;s all the time. Constant. It doesn& #39;t switch off. At all.
I manage to accomplish things feeling like that - what could I achieve if my head was right? If the pain subsided, just a little, just long enough to cut a break? Anyway, it takes time and trial-and-error and becoming a friend to yourself. That& #39;s the important bit.
Imagine that self-critical voice was saying those awful things about someone you think is absolutely class and love dearly. Fight yourself& #39;s corner because you *are* worth it, and if you can get through today, and the next day, and another, you& #39;ll be ready too. #MindYourself
