he was so disappointed in himself. i wish i could tell him that i’m so proud of him, that he did his best.

but if i did tell him that, he’d wonder, was his best not enough?

was he not enough?

he’d still blame himself for seijoh’s loss. having the role of a captain, he probably felt that he’d let his team down. he tried so hard and yet, he still lost. why was that so?

some things are just not meant to be. just like how the sky is blue and the grass is green, he was never meant to go to nationals.

it’s written in the stars, it’s what most call “fate” and “destiny”.

oikawa tooru was never good enough.

he would never be able to play at the national stadium alongside his best friend and the teammates he cared so much for.

he would never get to experience the triumph and satisfaction of winning against shiratorizawa.

he would never truly feel that he was enough.

oikawa tooru was never good enough.

but he was the only one that thought that.

everyone around him could see how hard he worked, how much he’s worth.

so, why couldn’t he?
why is he so hard on himself?
why would he ever doubt himself?

why was he so sad?