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since it’s world mental health day aku mau cerita tentang what i’ve gone through, tapi lebih pengen terima kasih sama orang2 yang udah bantu w!! 
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2014/2015 is when everything started. experienced my first panic attack dan terus lanjuthttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✌️" title="Siegeshand" aria-label="Emoji: Siegeshand">
been brought to ER a couple times because my hyperventilation was really bad. i thought i was gonna diehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💀" title="Schädel" aria-label="Emoji: Schädel"> tapi gaguna anjrit di ugd gua gadiapa apain alias dikasih air anget doang kocak.
when ur mental being ain’t well emang gakeliatan tapi believe it or not it affects your physical being as well
ke dokter multiple times gadapet diagnosa apapun pdhl ngerasa sakit kaya severe back pain, hyperventilation, muntah, dizzy, dll gt deh
w cuma highlight yg keliatan dari luar aja (physically) soalnya kalo cerita apa yg gua rasain (emotionally) gabakal kelar wkwkwhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤓" title="Nerd-Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Nerd-Gesicht">
did i tell anybody? i did. my closest friends atm tapi namanya juga anak 13 tahun bisa bantu apa, they thought i was locohttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="☠️" title="Totenkopf" aria-label="Emoji: Totenkopf"> for some reason i didn’t tell ami for a long time soalnya takut i was gonna lose her
waktu itu i was on edge bgt gatau mau gmn akhirnya i told ami (crying included) turned out she listenedhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht"> beneran deh my guardian angel
gatau gimana kalo gaada ami anjrit udh metong kali gua, huge thanks buat ami i love her smhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💜" title="Violettes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Violettes Herz">
disclaimer: waktu itu gua gangerti kalo mental bisa sakit, gua kira serangan jantung atau simply gonna die. ami told me these things luv an educated and aware queenhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💅🏻" title="Nagellack (heller Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Nagellack (heller Hautton)">
kelas 10 peak unstableness lah pokonya. yang kelas 10 sekelas trs w tiba2 nangis it wasn’t caper y’all i had an attack srry i couldn’t handle it well:( i was so desperate.
i met 1 lagi guardian angel yaitu lintanghttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✨" title="Funken" aria-label="Emoji: Funken">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✨" title="Funken" aria-label="Emoji: Funken"> lintang was always there, she even called suicide hotline for me pdhl making a phone call was frightening for herhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">
note: indo suicide hotline gak available waktu itu cacat bgt:( dan hotline2 lainnya belom banyak waktu itu jadi gatau mau telepon kemana lagihttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💀" title="Schädel" aria-label="Emoji: Schädel">
lanjut kelas 11, i started getting better. huge thank you buat parcel, you guys helped me a lot even cuma dari presence kalianhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht"> u guys make me feel safehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✌️" title="Siegeshand" aria-label="Emoji: Siegeshand">
kelas 12 udah jauh lebih baikhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤓" title="Nerd-Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Nerd-Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤓" title="Nerd-Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Nerd-Gesicht"> transisi pas kuliah was tough tapi most seniors went through it jadi ga parah2 bgt lah orang menderita rame2 alias bisa relate satu sama lain
eh lupa ya allah kelas 12 gua sering cerita ke kintan, she was really comforting tbh luvss. OH! and that one time i experienced an attack in class acid bantuin gua packed my bagshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht"> means a lot bcoz she paid attentionhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">
in conclusion i really wanna thank my friends ily guyshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💜" title="Violettes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Violettes Herz"> semuanya ya gak cuma yang w sebutin di atashttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✨" title="Funken" aria-label="Emoji: Funken">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✨" title="Funken" aria-label="Emoji: Funken">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✨" title="Funken" aria-label="Emoji: Funken">
reminder: speaking up takes courage, tapi pasti ada yang dengerin, just find the right person (tp ini susah) wkwk srry not helping
kalo mau cerita i’m all ears, i’m gonna try my best to be a good listener! beneran just hmu if u need anything:)
i’m sorry if this thread makes you uncomfortable, sorry for the poor deliveryhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❌" title="Kreuzzeichen" aria-label="Emoji: Kreuzzeichen">
this is only for cathartic purposeshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💎" title="Edelstein" aria-label="Emoji: Edelstein">
