I’ve been sat on this for ages but given what day it is today and me trying to be more open about mental health, I wanted to share my mental health story.

#WorldMentalHealthDay

During lockdown my mental health took a BIG hit. There were days where I would have such great feelings of anxiety and straight up sadness. Those days would eventually turn into weeks. There were moments were everything around me just felt overwhelming and all I wanted to do...

... was cry because I felt helpless. At times it felt like I wasn’t really here and that I was living in my thoughts.

I remember being asked at work once whether I was okay. I had got into my head again and had just zoned out and started to feel that anxiety build.

I got asked if I was okay and I laughed it off and said it was because I hadn’t got much sleep.

There was a point actually where I was at work in the company of my colleagues and my head honestly felt like it was going to explode and I knew I needed help.

It’s funny actually because for years I’ve always wanted a therapist out of curiosity but never really thought I needed one. I guess I waited so long it got to the point where I needed one.

Luckily I was able to find a therapist through work and quite quickly at that (which is a privilege I’m grateful for) and I’ve been going to therapy for a couple of weeks now. And you know what?

If you are in a position to go to therapy, I HIGHLY recommend it. I’ve benefited from it so much and I do feel myself feeling so much better.

There’s still some work to go though. There are still parts of my headspace I’m still trying to deal with. There’s also my faith that I’m trying to build and work on. Also, all of this whilst trying to live a happy and healthy life.

Anyway, all of this is to say that please don’t live in your head. Your mental space is just as important as your physical space and we all have a certain level of mental health, just as we all have a certain level of physical health.

Look after your mind.

If I’m being completely honest, i’ll probably delete this thread by the end of the day because I actually like getting really personal like this (lol) but I hope it helps someone