WARNING: Non-infosec, personal thread:

I had a terrible night last night. I was not and still am not "OK" per se. Not in danger, not on the edge, but definitely not ok. A lot of harsh realities came to light, a lot of regrets surfaced, and anxiety took over in a big way. 1/

Despite little sleep, I dragged my butt out of bed and went for a hike hoping it would help. It didn't. I'm sitting here now, still not right.

I'm a panelist for a Women in Cybersecurity event at my former University this morning. I'm not sure how to get in the mindset for 2/

that. I'm supposed to inspire, guide, and lift up the women attending this event. But I'm broken, I'm messed up, and I'm terrified they'll see right through me today.

Who am I to show them all the great they can accomplish when I'm such a mess? 3/

Even now, I can't believe I'm Tweeting all this out in public. But I needed to get this out, and this crazy social platform has become my space for that.

I'm sure I'll get through this, I will be ok, but for now I'm struggling through. Be kind to each other alright? 4/

Compassion and empathy shouldn't be liberal views, they should be universal. Just as some of you caught my tweet before I deleted it last night and added some much needed light to my dark tunnel, let's all do that for each other every day please.

-A