Hi friends, I made this account public for now so you can see this tweet w/o having to follow back if you don’t want to.

I’m having a really hard time with my perception of some realities, like my online friendships, and if the things I think are true or not.

Basically, something triggered a really bad and destructive mental break and it feels like my brain is splitting and through this I truly cannot tell if I am being toxic or abusive in the ways I’m trying to navigate.

I don’t know how anyone feels about me. Part of why I SBed everyone is bc my brain told me no one cared about what I think or feel and that getting rid of all interaction was the best way. Idk if that’s true or not.

I’m sorry for being so messy online. I struggle with coping with these mental breaks, especially when they twist my realities and I suddenly feel like dying would be a benefit to everyone.

I do not want to hurt anyone, I’m afraid the volatile ways in which I do things online do, so please let me know if I have done something harmful. I will try to be better.

If anyone wants to talk outside of social media, pleas let me know. I’ll give you my number or connect on whatever messaging app you use. This is just an option.

Thank you for being friends in the ways that you have, it means a lot to me.

Sorry this is so melodramatic, I do not know what the best way to say “hey I love you and you mean a lot to me but I know I’m exhausting and I don’t want to force you to be my friend but if you want to be my friend I would love that” is. Thank you, love you.

I am having a hard time telling how this thread is coming off because like I said my perceptions are warped and my brain is splitting, but my intention is to ask you to reach out and connect if you want to, and to say it’s okay if you don’t want to.

I don’t want to only connect with people through my online breakdowns, so if you want to connect outside of social media, I promise the main thing I will use that for is sending tik toks.