hmmmm wow, i HATED pain as a kid.

like, middle-high school i had a very "do something about it or stop worrying about it attitude, and i& #39;m pretty sure I explicitly constructed it from

"being in pain (anxious, worried, guilty) is THE WORST so I& #39;m just gonna *not*"

i later spun stories about "being tough" and about how silly all the anxious people in my life were, but I& #39;m pretty sure that at it& #39;s core it was "pain is the worst thing, i absolutely refuse, gtfo"

i had lots of little physical things that drove me crazy as a kid. tags on shirts were unbearable.

i remember wandering around recess in 4th grade with yet another hangnail thinking "Is this my life? an endless stream of pain and misery? I& #39;m i just going to hurt until i die??"

funny enough i was fine with cuts and bruises and played very roughly. but i dunno, certain sensory things and certain emotional pain i& #39;d just flip the fuck out