People think that bpd symptoms are so relatable but it’s the intensity people really don’t get, it’s not worrying a bit after receiving a text that seems off it is your ENTIRE body experiencing the paranoia u would feel if you found out the entire world was plotting against u

Speaking of my experience I spend my entire life thinking absolutely everyone is against me and not just don’t like me but are physically out to get me and I just bounce from loving the fuck out of people to the slightest thing making me want to cut them out of my life

I get so caught up in my paranoia that I don’t know what’s real or what is delusion when I bounce from loving people to finding them unbearable it is just me thinking I’m protecting myself but I make up scenarios in my head and then can’t work out what happened n what didnt

sadness isn’t feeling ran down and tired of life it’s a constant pain in your chest the kind most people will feel when something tragic happens like a death of a loved one and you feel like the only way out of that feeling is it end your life OR numb it with self destruction

My relationships become so challenged because so many aspects of bpd really get triggered by having close relationships and especially having a favourite person

But when I am happy too that can be so intense and so euphoric sometimes I can literally feel similarly to how I feel on MD cause the emotions are SO much !! Everything I feel is just on STEROIDS but it’s so exhausting because it’s such a rollercoaster

1 more thing that’s kinda annoying is i feel like I can only keep on top of my shit when i don’t do anything other than work and stay in my bedroom, every time I go out I always feel likes it’s set me back in some kinda way but I lock myself in my bedroom n that’s not mint ???

This got way more interaction than I ever get so I just wanna put a disclaimer that these are just my experiences I’m not saying everyone with bpd is the exact same and this thread could be a million times longer i have only addressed like 1% of what bpd is like here