TL sleep? I actually do not regret the relationship, it was beautiful and freeing to love and be loved without confinement, I'm just really hurting rn and the pain wants to erase my memories that I know i will miss when I'm out of it. I don't regret the miracle of building

something with someone that felt like home, or having a confidant and supporter through all the madness that was this year, I don't regret falling asleep and drinking wine over FaceTime, neither do I regret the precious moments we actually got in the same space.

I would have wanted more time but maybe the miracle was even getting those nights when i went to sleep and my heart was genuinely happy, maybe the miracle is the fact that i didn't think I could love in that capacity anymore.

Maybe the miracle is the possibility of the existence of love that sees and stays and yes, there is pain and i am honouring the process of healing but i will always welcome joy, i will always choose love and i will never not be me.