TL sleep? I actually do not regret the relationship, it was beautiful and freeing to love and be loved without confinement, I& #39;m just really hurting rn and the pain wants to erase my memories that I know i will miss when I& #39;m out of it. I don& #39;t regret the miracle of building

something with someone that felt like home, or having a confidant and supporter through all the madness that was this year, I don& #39;t regret falling asleep and drinking wine over FaceTime, neither do I regret the precious moments we actually got in the same space.

I would have wanted more time but maybe the miracle was even getting those nights when i went to sleep and my heart was genuinely happy, maybe the miracle is the fact that i didn& #39;t think I could love in that capacity anymore.

Maybe the miracle is the possibility of the existence of love that sees and stays and yes, there is pain and i am honouring the process of healing but i will always welcome joy, i will always choose love and i will never not be me.