Hello.
This is important to me.
A few weeks ago, the person who owns my entire heart and soul asked me this question.
So I’m here to answer it in hopes that whoever claims them in the future knows what they’re getting into.
I don’t care if people scroll past this thread, or choose to ignore it because they want to keep that ‘heartless sex on legs dom’ image of me in their head.
At the end of the day, I’m human too. And I need to share my thoughts because I’ve come to the point where I’m confused
and need to let it all out.
The person I’m talking about has been on my mind since the very first day we started talking. Reserved and awfully social at the same time, I couldn’t help but be intrigued whenever I interacted with them.
There was something about the way they carried
themselves that got me thinking: what could they be hiding. So much aura surrounded a fragile soul with a heart that was begging to be cared for. A heart that had gone through the worst until they stopped looking for affection. Love was nothing but a source of anxiety to them.
We got closer, eventually went through the occasional flirting.
All I could think about was the cheesy jokes and the few times they’d open up to me.
I cherished every moment we spent together because I could see myself in them. Someone so disappointed and deceived by the idea
of love that they couldn’t help but internalize the idea that people would simply get bored of them at some point.
But I never did. And I wish things were different.
I wish I could say otherwise today, after promising myself that I’d move on over and over again.
Here I am, though
still confused and disappointed in myself for losing the moon while counting the stars.
Many people would hate me for writing this. They’d say I’m trying to guilt trip them into coming back to me.
But I’m here to say one thing.
The person I’ve helplessly fallen in love with could
never chase after me.
And I’m in no position to blame them.
So I’m here to talk to whoever gets the chance to gain their trust and take care of them.
If you somehow get to read this, remember that you’ve hit the damn jackpot.
Someone who’ll do nothing but add joy and delight
into your life.
They have a slight obsession with video games, but nothing incurable. They like strawberry cows, I have no idea what those are but you’d better get them one.
They also said they’re not a big fan of kids, but I’m sure they’d be a wonderful parent. They want a son,
and they keep joking about calling him Robert.
They have a thing for cuddling and their bubbly personality is something you won’t get to witness if you don’t fight for it.
They’re insecure.
Because they’ve become numb.
So please make sure you teach them to love again. Hold them
as tight as you can at random times no matter how hard they try to push you away. They’re secretly a sucker for kisses and skinship.
I’m not sure I’ll ever get the strength to see them with you, so you’d better do your absolute best to keep them happy.
In the midst of my own selfishness, greed, self victimization, impatience and toxicity, I forgot to count my blessings and keep them close.
The realization that they were slipping through my fingers didn’t hit until it was too late.
So to answer your question, I saw through you.
All this time, I could read you like an open book but I chose to let my ego take over the urge to chase after you.
I saw everything others couldn’t see.
The pain, the unbothered attitude, the fear, it was all so clear. Yet I was so scared not to meet your expectations that I
somehow convinced myself that I wasn’t the one.
And here I am, happily paying the price of my reckless behavior.
Everything was good about you, my love. Everything was stupidly good about you.
To anyone who decides to send hate or unnecessary rude comments to my cc, I will fucking snap your back in half and make you choke on something very unpleasant.
Have a good day.
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