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u know how discouraging it is to post something like that and have it get seen by tons of people but only like 10 actually click on the video, and they probably clicked off the second they heard my voice. and how only like 3 of my friends actually rlly told me they listened to it
and that I’m not sure how much people actually care anymore. is there really a point if I’m just gonna be met with deafening silence every fucking time I do something like this?? or just mocking discord gifs whenever I post my cover in a server for my friends and I??
idk because my friends all tell me I’m super talented and they think I’m good at music but I post a song and like 3 of them listen to it
idk man maybe I’m thinking to much about this but whenever my friend posts a video essay everyone gathers around but when I posted this song only he and 2 other people like said anything about it
I might just be jealous
it just feels like I’m not as important and never will be in the friend group. I really feel like they all secretly don’t like me even though I know that isn’t true. But I still feel like it just because of the response I got, or lack of more accurately, that is just making me
feel like this. I don’t know. I really don’t know
and I bet like none of my friends will even read this rant. none of them really see my tweets ever
or they just ignore them
I feel like saying all this is really stupid because why should I care about views. I make music for myself not anyone else.
I think it’s more the lack of a response from friends than a lack of views. Cause I’m a really low follower account, so I’m not expecting a shit ton of views
god I probably sound so petty rn
I’m sorry
I’ll probably delete this later all these tweets are so irrational
I’m literally fucking complaining about views what is wrong with me
I’m a fucking wreck dude LMAO
why is this getting me so angry. I don’t understand
I’m so fucking petty aren’t i
literally what did this do. nothing. just me feeling sorry for myself as usual instead of just being happy I even made something like that
I don’t think they like me
I beg them to vc constantly like they don’t have their own shit to do. I make it all about me constantly
and I say the same shit every time one of my friends is feeling down. I’m no fuckjng help ever. Just a broken fucking record “oh it will get better” “I’m sorry” “I get where you’re coming from” “it’ll be ok” “dont worry” and none of the are any fucking help at all
oh look making it about myself again lol
I should probably just shut up huh
never talk again
then I won’t be there to pretend to help you
