TECH: we only hire the best minds, always thinking, examining data, searching for the truth
ENGINEERS: *have anxiety*
TECH: hmm

I've had multiple people tell me recently that it's obvious I'm "not ok" but my tweets are very relatable and idk how to feel about that

I have amassed so many coping mechanisms over the years that just aren't available right now and I hate hate hate it

but I also know representation is important and my tweets make others feel less alone

anyway the Trump news cycle has been *fucking with me* and if you also feel more terrible than usual, you are not alone

basically all my anxiety coping mechanisms boil down to putting my situation in perspective and I can't effectively do that in isolation

I just _stew_

I'm down to math problems, engaging media that doesn't allow me to doomscroll (shows with subtitles / live-streams with chat), music, and exercise

my most effective mechanisms? physical affection and being with friends

whenever I talk about my anxiety a lot of people get really worried, offer to help, send love, etc

listen

I'm not sharing it for you

I'm sharing it for the people who are also dealing with anxiety

that's my way to get perspective these days

yeah I have anxiety but I am also working, taking care of myself, having fun the best I can

things are hard but not impossible

if you also have anxiety: brains are stupid and I know you're still getting shit done

feel free to share dank memes about how much we hate our brains