The chair of U Toronto's English Department told me not to mention disability on job applications or I'll never be hired.

Cornell's postdoctoral advisor said if I disclose psychosis, I will never get an interview.

Many factors to the job search, but so far they are right. https://twitter.com/DisInHigherEd/status/1311639901033693185

I understand the strategy of encouraging the representation of disabled colleagues--it can help especially when students want to see what is possible--but I am more interested in making the *oppressive forces of ableism and sanism* visible.

The Cornell postdoctoral advisor was genuinely on my side: she said that I'm not hired by anti-discrimination policy, I'm hired by a committee of people. They will become uncomfortable about having a colleague who experiences psychosis and find some other reason not to hire me.

In my experience, we have a long way to go in creating institutions that support disabled insight & see disabled insight as possibility rather than problem.

Hiring me is more than a tick-box. It would mean turning reason inside out. Questioning how to think and write and be.

I don't want disabled representation. I want us to address the global atrocities of the last 500 colonial years and think deeply about the role of ableism within capitalist extraction, the role of sanism within enlightenment practices. I want all our brains to become a bit mad.