wow I think I totally clowned myself just now: a thread

this thread is fucking long but if you like dramatic stories definitely keep reading

as y& #39;all know I was at a restaurant yesterday with my friends. there& #39;s this one guy who I& #39;ve been talking to a lot since a couple weeks ago, but I hadn& #39;t seen him irl in years! but yesterday I saw him again and the chemistry was suddenly SO different?? there was a tension there.

afterwards we walked to the bus station and me, the guy, and one girl walked ahead of the rest. the girl asks the guy about his ex (they broke up couple months ago) and then she asks if he& #39;s already seeing someone else. he says he doesn& #39;t, but he said he might has his eye on sum1

then the girl OUT OF NOWHERE says "omg is it Sandra???" he says "eww no!" (as a joke, we roast each other all the time) so she asks "what& #39;s wrong with Sandra" and he stayed silent https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👁" title="Auge" aria-label="Emoji: Auge"> and the convo was over. so I was like wait what just happened????

so my friends go home, most of them took the same bus except one girl. I tell her about what happened just now, and she says "ooh yeah, I know something about it" so I ask "omg is he dating someone?" cuz I& #39;m curious and she says "he likes someone but I can& #39;t tell you who" https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👁" title="Auge" aria-label="Emoji: Auge">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👄" title="Mund" aria-label="Emoji: Mund">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👁" title="Auge" aria-label="Emoji: Auge">

AND THEN HER BUS CAME. so I just stood there like ??? wtf just happened p2??? I walk home and I sit on my bed and HE TEXTS ME PRIVATE (he never did that in our 4 year friendship) and asks if I had fun. so I said yes! hbu? and he tells me that he felt kinda left out sometimes

so I say "ohhh l hope I did not make you feel that way" and he responds "oh no Sandra, you were the only one I truly connected to" WHAT???
then the food poisoning kicked in so the convo ended but I was like hold up does he... like ME? so I text the girl from the bus station like

"girl what do u know what I don& #39;t" and she& #39;s like "what are you talking about?" LIKE SHE DIDNT JUST SAY SUM WEIRD SHIT AND THEN LEFT?
but today I woke up and it feels different. I went into a discord call with one of the girls and he randomly joined so that seems like a sign,

but at the same time he barely says anything to me?
basically I& #39;m so afraid I& #39;m imagining all of this and that the whole story wasn& #39;t about me https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤡" title="Clownsgesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Clownsgesicht"> I& #39;m too scared to ask the bus girl if she knows about his crush because if it ain& #39;t me I feel SOOOO STUPID https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💀" title="Schädel" aria-label="Emoji: Schädel">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💀" title="Schädel" aria-label="Emoji: Schädel">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💀" title="Schädel" aria-label="Emoji: Schädel">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💀" title="Schädel" aria-label="Emoji: Schädel">