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This is a thread of my weight gain journey. Been wanting to do this & I'm finally doing it cos I had a conversation with one of my mutuals yesterday. I'm going to make salient points in this thread, idc if you don't agree with them but if you insult me, I'll report your account.
I've been skinny basically my whole life for as long as I can remember. It wasn't really hard at first cos I was young, so I felt when I became a teenager, I'd become big. But I entered my teenage years and there wasn't any real change. I was still skinny. I felt like there was..
..something fundamentally wrong with me because why wasn't I growing like other people?
All I had was breasts, so the boys in my school started calling me P shape. It was depressing to say the least. I've always had a lot going on for me at every point in my life so I always...
All I had was breasts, so the boys in my school started calling me P shape. It was depressing to say the least. I've always had a lot going on for me at every point in my life so I always...
..try to focus on whatever good thing happening so that I can be happy. I was doing really well in school so that was my focus. But all the comments people made about my body hurt so much. They stung. It didn't help that I had hip dips, & I didn't even know what they were till..
..I joined Twitter. I thought I was the only one that had them so I just felt like my creator did me dirty. Everything people said about my body made me super conscious. I had a particular way I walked. I'd push out my waist as much as I could so that people could see I wasn't..
..a straight line. My family even had a name they teased me with (I love them regardless, that name just hurt). I've had to deal with this every single day of my life. I got into uni, it got worse. In the hostel people would make so many comments you didn't ask them for. It was..
..messing with my mind and I knew I was tired of all the comments. Then of course there's the part about someone I was involved with always tweeting about big bumbum and it crushed me every time
I've done a number of things I'm not exactly proud of cos of being skinny shamed...
I've done a number of things I'm not exactly proud of cos of being skinny shamed...
I get extremely upset when people say that there's nothing like skinny shaming. I've stopped engaging on here, I just block anyone that takes that stand cos it triggers me a whole lot. Earlier in the year, I posted a picture of me in school in my white & black. Two of my male...
..mutuals came under the tweet and made hurtful comments about my hips. I was so hurt that I deleted the pictures. It was @Chinnyb_ that noticed then sent a DM with the sweetest and most reassuring words. I felt a lot better after she did, such a sweet babe. I've struggled a lot
cos of my weight. I'm a very vain person, anyone that knows me well knows this fact so the fact that people were ALWAYS making comments about my body size made me really upset. I believed there was something wrong with me for the longest time. I think it's last year I realised...
..that I'm actually a really beautiful woman, skinny or not, regardless of the fact that my body didn't fit into the conventional beauty standard. It took a lot to get to that point cos my hip dips messed with my mind a lot. I decided to be intentional about finding clothes for..
..my body type. I found out high-waist jeans & crop tops looked really good on me so I got tons of them and made them my signature dressing. It was either that or really big, long dresses so that they could just envelop me & have my face and hair as the major focus. I realised...
..that I wanted to do something about the way I looked. I needed people to stop making silly jokes about wind carrying me away on a windy day. I needed them to stop asking me why I wanted to gain weight when everyone was trying to lose. I needed to stop hearing how I could be...
...easily kidnapped or stolen away because I was "foldable" or "portable". I also hated that random people would meet me and just attempt to lift me from the ground. It all always got me upset but I'd not say most times. I just knew I was really tired of the situation...
Anyway, lockdown came and presented me with the opportunity to gain the weight I'd always wanted. I was so excited about the fact that I had seemingly endless time on my hands to do whatever I wanted, so I decided to do intentional weight gain. It was really expensive cos I ate..
..at least 4 times everyday. Big shout-out to @TheAkwaIbomite for helping me draw up the solid meal plan that I used. Then @oluwapelumi_ii for answering all my questions about yoga, patiently putting me through and cheering me on when I sent pictures. It helped. A whole lot
I gained over 10kg this year, I'm ngl, it's the biggest highlight of the year for me. I'm going to wrap this thread up very shortly, so I'm reaching out to every skinny person out there that's struggling, especially when people downplay your struggle or say it's nonexistent.
I want you to know that you're beautiful regardless. Your struggle is very much valid despite what people say. Do whatever makes you happy, gain weight if that's what will make you happy but don't forget that people will never stop talking. I know this cos I've gotten nasty...
..comments about how "the former me" looked better than the current me. I'm not bothered anymore cos this is what I've always wanted, but I really wish people would stop commenting on other people's bodies & expect them to take it because "skinny". It absolutely makes no sense...
So this thread is for B, my mutual that I chatted with yesterday. I know you'll see this. You're a beautiful woman and you'll only get more beautiful. This is what I've told myself for over a year and I will keep manifesting it. I know you will too
I love and appreciate my friends & family. They're ALWAYS there for me. Made this whole situation not as depressing as it could've been. My support system is very solid and I don't take it for granted at all. I hope to give out at least half the love I've received in this life
Wrapping this up by giving a big shout-out to skinny people. Do whatever you want. Add weight if you like. Remain skinny if not. Whatever the case, you will always be beautiful. My personal principle is that I am not the bigger person. If you body shame me, I will do back x.
I'm getting so many DMs from people that can relate to this thread. I'll reply all and I'm sending loads of love to everyone
Based on popular demand, here's the meal plan I used. It's regular food tbh. I also used a mass gainer to make smoothies with plenty bananas and avocado. Prepare your coins sha cos it's expensive
You'd need a supplement or something to make you feel hungry. Ask your doctor. https://twitter.com/theakwaibomite/status/1268442208941858816
You'd need a supplement or something to make you feel hungry. Ask your doctor. https://twitter.com/theakwaibomite/status/1268442208941858816
