i am at a loss for words. i cant begin to explain how desperately i wish i was extroverted. how i wish i had social stamina. but texting someone nowadays literally drains all of me. its so hard. let alone actually speaking to people https://twitter.com/miikbubbies/status/1312977277521543168

if ppl come over i always jus hid in my room. hid behind doors. hid in the bathroom. and the people who came over always knew i was somewhere hiding from them

as quirky as it may be, it has only made me accustomed to fear, distance, and loneliness.

now i cant hold a conversation. cant talk without feeling under pressure. cant make friends. i havent made a friend my own age (irl) in nearly 10 years. i am very lonely.