okay so i think some things need to be addressed about me and the alex, lexi, jess thing i don’t really want to talk about them while they’re not here but i know i was publicly acquaintances to friends with them so strap in bc this is going to be a lot ig

i want to preface this by saying that i personally did not have a large role in many of the “callouts” or “cancellings” both because i missed some of them and i tried to stay silent in the ones that did not seem like big deals to me. however, i’m sure i played a part in some-

events that weren’t particularly large issues and i want to take full responsibility for that and not downplay my role. also i want to clarify i was in a gc with them and while it was not the malicious attack center some people depict it as there were tweets sent and reacted to-

sometimes somewhat rashly. again i tried to avoid this for the most part and i tended to stick to telling people why what they did was wrong than actively fighting. NOT because poc owe anyone education just to be clear but because that’s how i tend to handle situations.-

i wanna put out there that i know some people were cancelled for small mistakes or things that were unintentional. and being completely honest here i am somewhat easily swept up in what other people think bc i don’t trust myself and tend to value others opinions over my own.-

i especially do this in situations where i am in a group of people who feel differently than me. and i know this is not an excuse and this is something i need to better about myself. i should have spoken up when i thought someone was being unfairly harped on or i should’ve-

distanced myself from the group all together. again it was not group planning to cancel people but when i saw that someone was being “cancelled” over something that didn’t seem that important to me i should’nt have just sat out, i should’ve spoken up.-

and to anyone that was cancelled or driven off twitter for said small mistakes i am sorry. i like to give people the benefit of the doubt and i didn’t do that for you and i should have. i do want to make in painfully clear that any kind of bigot is absolutely NOT included-

in this apology and those people i still stand by calling out for their behavior. it’s still fuck bigots 150%. but i know people make mistakes and i’m sorry to anyone i jumped on the bandwagon to call out for making a mistake. it was wrong of me and that’s something i need to-

fix about myself. and i don’t want that to take responsibility away from any part i played. but i want to explain why i was always only “kinda” associated with that group and who they “cancelled”. (ive been putting cancelled in quotes bc i don’t know what to call it)-

i am now seeing the hypocrisy in their actions and im realizing what was wrong. i also want to let anyone who i didn’t stand up for know that i am here to talk if you want. i will always hear you out (again unless you’re a bigot in which case i’ll probably still reply but not-

nicely). i don’t know if this matters to anyone or if anyone is gonna bother to read all this tbh but that doesn’t matter bc it’s important to me that i take accountability. i overlooked hypocrisy when i should’ve called it out. and there were some things i truly did not know-

about. but for the things i did i should’ve done better.