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Autistic people can sometimes have difficulty recognizing signals from their body
If undiagnosed during teenage years these problems with exec functioning can permanently damage self-image and development of ego
#ActuallyAutistic #myPTSDday
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If undiagnosed during teenage years these problems with exec functioning can permanently damage self-image and development of ego
#ActuallyAutistic #myPTSDday
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For me this was source of intense psychological pain and feelings of not belonging
My secret:
I pooped my pants regularly into my teenage years because I ignored my body's signals
Before my diagnosis the only explanations were damning to me as a person
My secret:
I pooped my pants regularly into my teenage years because I ignored my body's signals
Before my diagnosis the only explanations were damning to me as a person
The ways in which I viewed myself during this time were informed by societal perceptions
That I was gross, that I was disgusting, that I should feel shame for it
Every time I did it was a sign I would never be a "Normal" adult, that I was to be undesirable to others
That I was gross, that I was disgusting, that I should feel shame for it
Every time I did it was a sign I would never be a "Normal" adult, that I was to be undesirable to others
In my teenage years I also smashed my front teeth up in a biking accident
This made me feel conventionally unattractive to match the internal feelings of disgust I was feeling, this pushed me to accept an isolated lifestyle and repress romantic and sexual desires indefinitely
This made me feel conventionally unattractive to match the internal feelings of disgust I was feeling, this pushed me to accept an isolated lifestyle and repress romantic and sexual desires indefinitely
As a result I have lived my entire life isolated from a whole section of the human experience
Sometimes the words we say stick to others in a way that isn't easy to detach, this is the effect of dragging public figures with ableist jokes about people who use diapers
Sometimes the words we say stick to others in a way that isn't easy to detach, this is the effect of dragging public figures with ableist jokes about people who use diapers
Actively challenging these mental habits of putting myself down and making excuses for people who have abused me is extremely difficult work
I didn't deserve to be laughed at by peers who smelled it and called me out, I didn't deserve to be publicly humiliated in front of peers
I didn't deserve to be laughed at by peers who smelled it and called me out, I didn't deserve to be publicly humiliated in front of peers
Demonization of autistic advocates speaking about problems faced specifically by those of us with lower support needs has significantly reduced discussion of problems from missing diagnosis
I recognize this doesn't speak to the experience of #AllAutistics, that's not my intent
I recognize this doesn't speak to the experience of #AllAutistics, that's not my intent
Tired of people erasing late diagnosis from the discussion
All Autistic people deserve some representation through discourse, not just the ones below your functioning cutoff line for advocacy
If you erase low supports needs autistics from your advocacy you are a bigot
All Autistic people deserve some representation through discourse, not just the ones below your functioning cutoff line for advocacy
If you erase low supports needs autistics from your advocacy you are a bigot
Upon reflection I have realized that there are subtle ways to force #eugenics into practice based on messaging around disability
If disabled people disqualify themselves from reproduction based on societal perceptions then you don't need a genocide to remove them from gene pool
If disabled people disqualify themselves from reproduction based on societal perceptions then you don't need a genocide to remove them from gene pool
All messaging around disability feeds into the perception that disabled people are not valid romantic partners
If you mock someone for needing diapers and infantilize them they can internalize it in a way that works towards the goals of eugenicists without your intent
If you mock someone for needing diapers and infantilize them they can internalize it in a way that works towards the goals of eugenicists without your intent
I wanted to make a joke about this being a terrible way to advertise myself as a romantic partner but that's wrong!
Perspective shift: I won't, as a romantic partner, shame you for your bodily functions because I understand how much that can hurt
Perspective shift: I won't, as a romantic partner, shame you for your bodily functions because I understand how much that can hurt
Affirming this with a RT/likes means a lot, this was a struggle to re-frame against internalized ableism
That challenges the assumption that I am just doing mental gymnastics that aren't realistic
Thank you kind people, it means a lot
That challenges the assumption that I am just doing mental gymnastics that aren't realistic
Thank you kind people, it means a lot
Currently working to be open to probing into the forbidden realms of romance and sexuality but I can't do it alone(literally)
I am seeking open conversations about sexuality in private, I have a load of unexamined and unchallenged assumptions to work through before real dating
I am seeking open conversations about sexuality in private, I have a load of unexamined and unchallenged assumptions to work through before real dating
