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so umm this is going to be really hard for me to talk about and i apologize if theres any spelling errors or stuff like that. its kindof hard to type when theres tears in your eyes. but ummm yeah. after a lot of months of denying it and saying im +
so umm this is going to be really hard for me to talk about and i apologize if theres any spelling errors or stuff like that. its kindof hard to type when theres tears in your eyes. but ummm yeah. after a lot of months of denying it and saying im +
fine. i have finally realized and come to the conclusion that im not fine and that i probably need help but ive always been too scared to ask. ive trying to pretend that im okay by just joking around and trying to make my emotions seem like a joke its nothing but i realize that +
its just a coping mechanism that i have developed to make people worry less. and ive been really stressed with school and pressure from my family and just pressure i put on myself to be a good student/daughter has been really taken a toll on my mental health. and its really +
showing. and ive been having not so nice thoughts of "if i died would i really care" and just other not so good thoughts and ive been trying to ignore them but i kindof feel like theyre getting worse. and i want to tell my parents but its really hard for me to explain to them +
that "hey im not feeling very happy and im not having that will to live rn plus ive been having some spicy thoughts" considering the fact that im mainly this way because of them. and i know what i want to say to them but words just dont come out. its just hard for me to even +
admit that im not okay. but at this point i cant ignore it anymore. and i really just dont know what to do at this point. i dont even know what the point of this thread is anymore. i guess its just to say that im really not okay and i dont know what to do
