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I live in corona, the epicenter of the virus. I had to sit through conversations with community members and loved ones who told me that they thought they were positive and had trouble breathing but rejected the idea of going to elmhurst hospital because they saw the news.
They saw that hospital as a death bed. They feared dying alone in a hospital waiting to be seen. They feared it so much more than the actual virus. I had an uncle who passed away days after testing positive. I had an uncle who was placed on a ventilator.
I had an uncle who refused calling an ambulance because he had heard stories of how ppl were told to push through the symptoms and if they died they died and nothing could be done. I had an aunt who was terrified of the medical bill if she stepped into an ER.
I heard of the deaths of community members who I had last seen laughing and smiling before quarantine. I heard of community members on ventilators fighting for their lives.
I lived in fear as my husband went to work every day cuz we had to help my family with basic needs
I lived in fear as my husband went to work every day cuz we had to help my family with basic needs
I heard the moms scared of giving birth at the heigh of the pandemic, spoke to moms panicking cuz they couldn't buy clothing and food for their newborns. I had a mom worried that she was on her last pantry items and had no idea how to get food if they had no money
I am still trying to process the past 20weeks of this pandemic and it seems like its been forever...and then I see posts of entitled assholes all of a sudden admitting themselves to state of the art facilities just in case their health worsens.
And i feel a rage so deep in me that if I could I would shatter them to pieces. I would shatter their luxurious homes, shatter their valuables and leave everything to dust.
I feel rage seeing how ppl are saying don't wish them death or ill when they were the reason so many died
I feel rage seeing how ppl are saying don't wish them death or ill when they were the reason so many died
They were responsible for the long waits, for the lack of resources, for the lack of help. They wished us death the moment this started, they've been wishing us harm and death the moment they had power.
I can only wish them the same amount of energy they wished on us.
I can only wish them the same amount of energy they wished on us.
I keep refreshing my social medias in hopes of finding some news that they are suffering as much as our community did...it won't bring anyone back but it can atleast remind them that death is not biased...death comes for all of us.
