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A thread to set the record straight...

It has come to my attention that a certain SW has been posting derogatory comments regarding Goddess' true reason for accepting, & keeping, me in Her life. It has been said that Goddess only cares about money, & not me. 1/

I would like to put it on record that Goddess has, not once, asked me for money, or forced me to send. Every penny I have ever sent, every gift I have ever bought, every purchase I have ever made, has been of my own free will. My goal is to assist Goddess as much as I can. 2/

Goddess has made it very clear, on numerous occasions, that She does not want me to put other parts of my life in jeopardy just to send some more money. In fact, Goddess has asked me bluntly before, if I am overspending on Her, & if so, to stop until I can afford it. 3/

Apart from that kind of thoughtfulness, Goddess has also, on multiple occasions, checked in on me with no prompting, ensuring that all is well, especially when I was going through a particularly rough patch during July and August. Goddess ensured that She was available to talk 4/

whenever I needed to. Would someone who only cares about money do something like that? Goddess has helped in so many aspects of my life already. One of my first tasks was to come up with 3 future goals, & plans on achieving them. I had been drifting through life for so long 5/

that it took me ages to do. As a direct consequence of that task, I started contemplating the future again. I hadn't done that in 5 years. This brought to my attention the fact that I had been in a depressed state for several months, & needed to sort it out if I even wanted 6/

a future. That became my first goal - sort out my mental health. I have since been seeing both a psychiatrist & a psychologist, as well as spending three weeks in a psychiatric clinic in order to receive accelerated meds & therapy. I was diagnosed with non-specific bipolar 7/

& social anxiety. Turns out I'd been living with these from as early as 14 or 15, at least. I've literally been told that I'm lucky to be alive, as, by now, someone with that condition would have ended things. Not that I haven't tried. I'm just really bad at it, apparently 8/

My point here is that without that task, I may never have thought to find out if there was something clinically wrong. I would not have overcome severe depression in July. I would not have gone through the 3 week program in the clinic. I would, in all likelihood, not have been 9/

around to post this. Goddess, in essence, saved my life. As an added bonus, because of healthier eating, and finally doing some aerobic exercise, I have lost, so far, 17kg. For those not using the metric system, that is around 37.5 pounds. And counting. Therefore, indirectly 10/

Goddess has saved my life again, as I was a prime candidate for a heart attack at 50. Goddess may be learning of some of this for the first time, just like everyone else. My point being that one task immediately changed my life. There have been many other instances where that 11/

Has also been the case. Saying that Goddess does not care for me is like saying that Bonnie didn't care for Clyde, or that Mrs. Lovett didn't care for Benjamin Barker (aka Sweeney Todd). It is clearly untrue. I have said, on many occasions that Goddess is kind and caring. 12/

Why would I repeat myself that often if it wasn't true? Even me still being part of Goddess' life points to real care.

I hope that this will put to rest any doubts anyone has in Goddess Bonnie. She deserves your support during this trying time.

Finally... I'm sorry Goddess