Apparently the slow realization that even though I have no college degree I still might have valid things to say is finally kicking in. Only took like 15 years

Sorry about all the threads on all the different aspects, some of them very difficult to follow all the way through. My brain is sort of just overflowing with this stuff right now. The dam has broken because I'm too exhausted to give a shit anymore, maybe

And the typos, lol. So many typos now that I'm not agonizing over every single word. I'll get better, this is new for me

One time a young white lady solicitor of some kind came to my door. I was... I think 32 years old? She asked for my parents, lol. It's weird how being short and Asian and younger-looking can invisibly activate your fraud complex

I'm rarely ever treated as an adult in white-dominated settings, and it's impossible for me to know whether that's because of how I look, what stereotypes they're bringing to the table, everything

Easier to just say "well, I must be wrong, must be misunderstanding this in a way that even a child wouldn't. The world just isn't for me," even though really what it is is that the white world isn't for me

How can I not be angry, that I'm 40 years old and just now realizing that maybe everything I've thought is actually valid in some way, not simply yet another indication of my intrinsic inability to understand the "adult" world

People want me not to "hate" whites, lol. Mind your own business