Being Eeyore: a thread
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When you suffer with depression or anxiety your sense of reality is totally fucked.

These are some things you know I do if you are my friend

I say sorry a lot because I'm afraid my weakness is somehow making you hate me or I'm genuinely afraid that I've upset you

I ask if I'm being annoying because I genuinely think that you find me insufferable

If people don't get in touch or want to see me, invite me to things etc I assume it is because I am a downer, an irritant, an embarrassment or too much hassle.

I find it to cope in some situations that seem perfectly normal and fear I make people think there is something wrong with them that produces this reaction in me

I get really upset and cry because of the intensity and shame, not because I'm an attention seeking prick.

I text or tweet people a lot not because I'm an obsessive clingy weirdo but because silence scares me and I start to catastrophic that I've upset you somehow.

I insist I am OK when on the inside I'm screaming for someone to look at me and just say ' I know you're not and I'm here for you'. Not seeking attention but trying not to admit the isolation that depression brings.

That I don't know how much longer I can do this but know that it will be over before I give in.

That I would love to meet up but I can't get out of bed, that I will be there in an instant to help you even if I'm feeling down, that when I go quiet it's not because I've nothing to

say, that I know you're not sure of what to do because I am just as confused.

I'm not over-reacting, being silly or stupid, I don't need to hear things I can easily call myself. Exasperation or condescension sounds like "why don't you just go?"

I would beg for your patience and ask you understand I always mean to be a good friend and not to give up on me. I know it's not easy.

Basically I know at heart I'm a good person but often I can't believe anyone else knows or cares that I exist. Yes I am flipping Eeyore