Today is day 20. Yesterday I was maid of honour for my best friend. My first sober social engagement. I made it clear I wasn't drinking. I took alcohol free bubbles so I could still feel a part of it. It was a STRESSFUL day. There were dramas and hiccups galore...

Her marquee blew away in the wind. While she got ready I decorated her entire house to salvage the reception. While we were getting ready she said it felt odd I wasn't drinking with her so I opened my sober bubbles to join in. Her ride to the church was stuck in traffic...

So we piled into my fiesta to get her there on time. And I am so GRATEFUL that I choose a sober life. Under normal circumstances I would have been a bottle of wine deep at that point and I could not have driven her! It's all starting to make sense. I am present in life, capable..

No matter WHAT happens I can deal with it myself. I can step up with no obstacles in my way. I won't lie, I had fleeting urges to drink but I poured some more free fizz and ignored it. I danced sober. I made people cry with laughter sober. I am enough sober...

It isn't the magic potion I always thought I had to rely on. I was anxious before I went. I didn't want to go. I'm so so glad I did. Tomorrow is three weeks sober. And I am here for it. My new life is rolling out infront of me. Bring. It. On.