Disclaimer: I am posting this to address the realities of conflicting feelings people are having, not to advocate anyone having any particular feelings.

The Psalms have both "wishing people dead" prayers, and "protect me from those who wish me dead" prayers.

"I wish death would take my enemies by surprise!
I wish the earth would open up and swallow them alive,
because they plan such terrible things together."
--Psalm 55:15

"All my enemies whisper together against me;
they imagine the worst for me, saying,
'A vile disease has afflicted him;
he will never get up from the place where he lies.'"
--Psalm 41: 7-8

"May his days be few;
may another take his place of leadership.
May his children be fatherless
and his wife a widow.
May his children be wandering beggars;
may they be driven from their ruined homes."
--Psalm 109:8-10

Proverbs considers this natural.

"When the righteous prosper, the city rejoices;
when the wicked perish, there are shouts of joy."
--Proverbs 11:10

And also suggests maybe not being too enthusiastic.

"Do not gloat when your enemy falls;
when they stumble, do not let your heart rejoice,
or the Lord will see and disapprove
and turn his wrath away from them."
--Proverbs 28:17-18

Whatever you feel right now, you're not alone in that, not in any dimension, including time. Over several millennia, people have felt what so many say they are feeling now a great many times. You have lots of company.

If your hope for justice has been stirred this week, that's natural. It doesn't mean you're a bad person. Love doesn't mean you hope no consequences ever come for anyone. Prayer for someone can be prayer for their full understanding of themselves and their need for God's mercy.

So yes, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you, as the gospels say (i.e., Luke 6:27). But I leave it between you and God what form your love and prayers take. I don't wish suffering on anyone, but I do want true justice for everyone. Love can demand no less.