honestly

i tend to not notice or believe when ppl my age like me platonically or otherwise, and im hesitant to even just say platonic "i want to know you better/be friends" bcus i dont want to accidentally make anyone uncomfortable

and i feel like it's awkward enough trying to communicate wanting to be friends or know someone your age better, but it's worse trying to gauge what contexts it would be reasonable to confess you like some1 if you ever get to a point where u like someone that way and know them

and like, while realistically there shouldn't be issues if you're not weird abt shit and respect other ppl's boundaries and feelings, the idea of good friendships potentially getting more uncomfortable or even being ruined is terrifying

like id absolutely understand if someone felt uncomfortable if someone who misinterpreted their closeness or type of relationship to you admitted or heavily implied feelings, ive been in that situation online and it's pretty awkward having ppl approach u like that

id rather have tons of good friends my age or even just casual friends i get along with well than a relationship with anyone tbh, anyways.

and i feel like the sorts of ppl who admit they like me or otherwise try 2 get close are often the last ppl i want approaching me

[gabe]

i feel like almost all of the people i attract are either predators or gays who want me to be their therapist-boyfriend from the first second they meet me. which kind of sucks.