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i easily get frustrated when i see other “members” of my church who are constantly hating on doctrine, culture, &policy and only stay bc they feel “stuck.”
i’m learning to be more patient, but i get more angry than i’d like to be.
i’m learning to be more patient, but i get more angry than i’d like to be.
i understand that everyone’s spiritual journey is different. that’s why i want to be more patient.
but i FOUGHT so hard for years to be part of this Church. i testified of Christ and His love, even when i wasn’t a member and even when i had my doubts. i worked so hard just to learn another line of doctrine or embrace another ounce of church culture.
with this Church, it is so hard to say halfway. i know that firsthand, from the times i begged to be part of it and the times i walked away (and came back).
and so in the end, i want people to know that they are SO loved and we DO want them to stay but they ARE allowed to go
and so in the end, i want people to know that they are SO loved and we DO want them to stay but they ARE allowed to go
you are allowed to leave this Church. you’re allowed to trash on church policy, mock the culture, and deny the doctrine.
you have the exact same agency that allowed me to join the Church.
you have the exact same agency that allowed me to join the Church.
i will be the first to say that there are aspects of Church culture that should change & there is doctrine that’s difficult to understand. i believe it’s worth it.
but if you’re in so much pain and you’re not willing to endure it, that’s okay you are still loved. please allow yourself the peace of letting go, b/c i don’t think it’s good for anyone to let hatred and frustrations build up.
but please don’t also drag my faith into your pain.
but please don’t also drag my faith into your pain.
this whole thread is messy, but i’m so hurt and frustrated by “born and raised Mormons” who continue to hate on the Church but stay for the convenience of it
when i fought tooth and nail to be here
when i fought tooth and nail to be here
it feels unfair, and maybe it is.
i would’ve done anything to go to 3-hour church without sneaking out. i cried when i couldn’t go to yw camp. i felt broken in moments of despair when i felt like my family would never be together forever.
i sang new hymns alone. i gained a complete testimony entirely at home.
i sang new hymns alone. i gained a complete testimony entirely at home.
i gave up the beliefs i shared with my family. i let go of my desires to date women & conquered a pornography addiction. i gave up coffee! i moved to utah to follow God, and as a consequence, i haven’t seen my family since a month before my 17th birthday.
i did this because the gospel is worth it!
the gospel is worth all the little steps, like not drinking coffee and waking up earlier to read scriptures.
the gospel is worth all the big changes, like living on my own at sixteen and the risk of being disowned.
the gospel is worth all the little steps, like not drinking coffee and waking up earlier to read scriptures.
the gospel is worth all the big changes, like living on my own at sixteen and the risk of being disowned.
my sacrifices were difficult and perhaps even extreme. i truly believe that it’s worth it. but i’m not here to compare trials or challenges — what i’m trying to say is that if you don’t think the restored gospel of Christ is worth it, then why put yourself through suffering?
if you hate the Church while remaining as a member, and you don’t agree with church policy and don’t actively work on your testimony, and you complain about how the Church is unkind and unfair and unjust —
it can feel like a slap in the face to people who sacrificed so much.
it can feel like a slap in the face to people who sacrificed so much.
this thread was written as i feel very emotional, so please forgive if it isn’t coherent or if this isn’t what i would normally say. please know that it’s okay to have doubts, it’s okay to question your journey.
i just feel frustrated at members who have access to all this goodness, who reap the benefits of being a member and will pretend they like the Church when it matters, but in the end don’t want, try, or have a testimony AND hate on the Church
