the past three weeks of college make a lot more sense now that I am understanding the social relationships formed as explicitly racist lol
been thinking it was a me issue that all of my white male friends already have regular hookup buddies in week 3
now piecing together the fact that me and all my woc friends have received little to no romantic/sexual attention is not a coincidence or just “rust”
not that male attention can be a measure of validation - it’s about the feeling of disenfranchisement when as a woman your social capital is often equated with your perceived attractiveness
when you feel desirable, that is part of your capital and ability to exert any kind of authority in the social scene
that recruited athletes (who tend to fall short in academic measures and are not awarded athletic scholarships as per Ivy League rules) are the arbiters of which women are attractive and worth engagement is further proof of the inherently classist nature of the system
who can afford to drive all over the country and attend camps where d1 coaches evaluate their performance? who can afford to commit years in advance to $80k x 4 years w no guaranteed aid?
(to say nothing of the way that men on teams like football or lacrosse define their entire social circle by their teams.. hmmm maybe u feel weird abt spending every day discussing other men’s bodies and their performance, spectating on those bodies, and obsessively measuring them
really interested in the relationship between game-ified, tinder-style judgments and the way that men who are valorised for “winning” various types of games become the power brokers of a social scene. what does it mean to “win”? go home w a blonde so mama wld approve!