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i had my first heartbreak when i was 9. my friend told the guy that i had a crush on that i like him and he looked at me in disgust. 3 years later, another guy that i liked threw harsh words at me and unfriended me on facebook. years later, another guy blocked me on every +
+ social medias that he had without confirming his feelings to me. i was dumb enough to believe that he liked me back just because he spared a few glance on me lol. and a year after that, i had a crush on my friend and we had a lil argument and he called me petty +
+ which led me to another heartbreak and later i blocked him because it has gotten toxic. a few months after that, i moved on with somebody else that i found cute. confessed my feelings, the guy seemed to like me too, everything was going fine +
+ and yeah.. it didn't last long. he later blocked me too because he was annoyed of what people were saying about me and him. (: +
+ skipped to a few months, i became friends again with my old friend and we talked to each other almost everyday. i happened to like him again and he didn't say a thing. he gave me confusing signals which i never understood. we stopped talking again and i was left alone. +
+ not longer after that, oomf told me that he already had a gf by the time we talked to e/o. he hid it from every1. i hate how the old me never gave up on the stupid crush that she had. also, the way i let myself being disrespected tons of times???? girl, you were an idiot.
i'm saying all these things not because i was trying to gain sympathy but i was just looking back at the time where everything in my life was indeed a chaos. it's really crazy how could i put myself in situations like that. chasing after someone who didn't even worth a second.
i was too young. too naïve to know about love. if i could turn back time, i won't waste any of them crushing on someone. i should've spend my time more with my friends. i should've not spare a single second stressing about temporary love. i should've smile and laugh more.
i'm still struggling to love myself, to take care of myself. it seems stupid on how i used to chase other people to love me just because i can't do it on my own. now i have learnt that the only person that can do it is me.
how are we supposed to love someone else when we don't even love ourselves? why do we expect love from others when we don't even like being ourselves?
if someone happened to read this thread, i hope all of us can start appreciating our own existence. start accepting the way you already are. improve and inspire yourself to do better. i know we can do this together! 
