After months of applications for tenure track positions, sleepless nights, headaches, an up & down between just giving up & really being excited about #academia, I received an offer today.
My reaction was a long silent cry... I didn’t know how much pressure I actually felt.

I have an offer for an Assistant Professorship, permanent contract. This is mind blowing & let’s me experience a very strong #impostersyndrome.
I have no idea why they decided that I don’t have to go through tenure.

Also my husband just got a permanent contract at a consulting firm in Zurich he works in since summer. So he can stay here & I would need to move to another European country.

Again long distance? During Covid?
Or do I not take the job?

I love academia in many ways while it really messes with my (mostly mental) health in others.
It’s great to feel a purpose, to mentor students & learn from them, and to being allowed (and forced) to be creative on a daily basis. And I just love #science.

But it comes with a price.
For us, it’s living apart or one of us needs to adapt the career to a great extent. Plus, we’ll be affected financially. Now, we have a great income.From #postdoc to Assist. #professor, I would reduce my income by almost 60%.

So what should we do?