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Okay So i promised i would leave twitter And Just fly to instagram But i have some stuff that i believe needs to be explained for my mutuals & Friends who have been throwing respect at my band & #39;Broken Hearts Mending& #39; i& #39;d hate to break the news but BHM may never tour (a Thread)
I Knew this was coming i just felt it deep down.
I& #39;m not saying Mending will never exist, But it& #39;s highly possible, and there& #39;s a very high chance it will die down and we will never release music, I Don& #39;t even think there& #39;s a *we* anymore, it& #39;s just myself...
I& #39;m not saying Mending will never exist, But it& #39;s highly possible, and there& #39;s a very high chance it will die down and we will never release music, I Don& #39;t even think there& #39;s a *we* anymore, it& #39;s just myself...
The thing is... i broke my trust and friendship with Captian @/KillTheCaptian And i let her down.. I stressed out and panicked when she blocked me... So i messaged her personal account which her parents check... Of course she got mad at me, Because i almost got her in trouble
Captian and I both got in a long argument, And the last shot was fired. She officially blocked me, and told me to leave her alone...She was a big importance to BHM, And She was the sweetest person i met on the internet i will never forget this and i& #39;m really gonna miss her...
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TW/ SeIf harmlng
It& #39;s true. I Wanted to seIf Hrm, and end it all.. After She canceled me and blocked me.. Because i feel like i let all my friends down including her, I Felt as if i wasn& #39;t a good friend to anyone.. But i didn& #39;t because i know there& #39;s hope.....
It& #39;s true. I Wanted to seIf Hrm, and end it all.. After She canceled me and blocked me.. Because i feel like i let all my friends down including her, I Felt as if i wasn& #39;t a good friend to anyone.. But i didn& #39;t because i know there& #39;s hope.....
I Had a rough time finding what i wanted to be when i grow up. I Didn& #39;t know what i wanted to do... Because nothing made me happy, Music was my only passion as well with the Band... it was the only career that interested me. And when Captian& #39;s gone... it& #39;ll be so goddamn hard....
I Know there& #39;s always someone else, And other Guitarists... But She& #39;s a amazing person, a Good friend, and the sweetest Girl i ever met before, She helped me get through depression and so much hell By being there for me, and being my friend... I Won& #39;t forget her or the band...
Before we met, i felt miserable, suicldal, and depressed... I didn& #39;t think the band thing would happen. i felt like the whole world including my family is just out to get me But when we met my life started getting better knowing we would meet and start a band but here we are.....
I Hate to admit it. But BHM makes me happy, And i was proud of myself for finding what i wanted to be when i grow up (A Musician, and singer) I Wanted to die back in February.. Because i felt alone and lost.. and worthless.. She saved my life by joining me.. but i wont lose hope.
The biggest lesson i have learned in my life... Is that my actions have consequences and humans will always make mistakes... We just need to learn from our actions and build something new out of ourselves.. And i want to own up to Captian and change the Jason i really am...
My Anxiety disorder is the reason we ended up here and She blocked me.. Because when i have panic attacks, i tend to act without thinking... She blocked me for a reason and i wish i knew before i fucked stuff up... I Want to cope and get rid of my pain, It will help me learn.
So just in case me and Her never get on speaking terms... or get the band up and running again... I Just wanted to personally thank you all for the respect and support you gave our band.. it made me fucking happy, And it motivated me. It was fun while it lasted.
Because of what happened in the band.. i& #39;ll be feeling depressed in the mean time, Because my favorite thing that makes me happy is fading. I Just want to change as a person and improve.. I Also want to give Captian patience and time to heal... Just thanks for everything... <3
There& #39;s Alot of things i regret
Especially trying to end my life just because Captian and my Friends were mad at me
all i have left to say to complete this thread
Is that, i hope She& #39;s okay
and knows i& #39;m sorry :(
I Just want to keep being her friend.
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Especially trying to end my life just because Captian and my Friends were mad at me
all i have left to say to complete this thread
Is that, i hope She& #39;s okay
and knows i& #39;m sorry :(
I Just want to keep being her friend.
i& #39;m gonna fucking miss her
